Tired of it all

Mentally exhausted, sleep deprived. Dealing with so much stress, financial worst, job pettiness. I just want to escape everything. I have struggled most of my life and just existing.

[Hidden]

I’m sorry you’re going through such a rough time...I too feel that way sometimes....actually most of the time. I wish I could be of more help but at least you know you’re not in this alone....I’m right there with you.

[mschloe]

I know exactly how you feel; some days are better than others but lately there are fewer of them. I'm going to try therapy again & hope it will bring me some positive feelings. Will also attend a women's group so maybe actually meeting others will make me feel less alone. I sure wish all of us on this site could somehow get together, but I do feel a closeness to everyone by writing & knowing how much we all struggle.

[Hidden in reply to mschloe]

What type of therapy will you be doing?

[mschloe in reply to Hidden]

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy really helped me get better two years ago. I bought a book called "Feeling Good, The New Mood Therapy" by David D. Burns, M.D. It was extremely helpful to me & teaches you how to change your negative thinking. You should do the homework in it; it seems when you write things down, it gives you a better perspective. I also kept a journal. Also, every day say out loud three things you are thankful for the day before; it can be anything, like a sunrise, laughing at something silly, a phone call, etc. When you have a negative thought, challenge yourself out loud. For example, you think you're never going to feel good again. Then say out loud that it's not true, that you had a pretty good day for anxiety the day before. The book will explain it better. The Psychiatrist shows you how you can sometimes get better without medication, or with a combination of CBT & meds. I did both as I was in bad shape two years ago. Right now I'm taking Klonopin in small doses when my anxiety is really bad; I've been taking 1/2 before bed or I wouldn't get any sleep. I've had insomnia for years. Also, go for a walk outside & get a little sunshine. I hope some of this might help.

[Hidden in reply to mschloe]

I was on klonipan for years. Just got off Ambien and trying to sleep on my own

[Justadetour]

I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through all this! I have learned recently that taking each day one by one actually helps me feel lesser stressed each day because I am only focused on that one day. It’s not easy ! But it’s worth it . If you don’t do this already you should give it a try! One step at a time

[Rpan]

So what is so wrong with wanting to escape? In fact escaping is exactly what we need at times. How can you achieve the feeling of escaping in a healthy way? I know what I do, you can learn this skill also. It’s ok to have these feelings, it’s important to escape from time to time.

[Hidden in reply to Rpan]

I don't know. Most times u wanna disappear.

[Hidden]

I'm taking Monday off, it's just too much to handle. I'm done.

[Rpan in reply to Hidden]

There you go, perfect. Give yourself a break. Surrender/acceptance is just that, there is no need to fight. Write out all things that are bothering you rip it up and throw it away, or turn the page to a blank page and write out some positive things you can achieve the next few days. We often get stuck in a rut, it’s about what we can do to get out of it. For me it’s all about what/how I talk inside.

[Cannotdakota777]

I have health issues which limits what I can do, such as social interaction. I feel trapped and afraid. I would love feedback. Thanks

[Hidden in reply to Cannotdakota777]

I wish I cd help, I'm quite introverted and close to few people. I'm so isolated today but feel like a burden at same time.

[corey658]

What made you happy when you were 5 years old

[corey658 in reply to corey658]

There was once a time where I didn’t know what anxiety and depression were. Maybe sad, happy, hungry, temper tantrummy but what made us happy then? I try to tap into that when I’m at my worst

[Hidden in reply to corey658]

Reading books, playing with toys. It's hard to remember exactly.

[corey658 in reply to Hidden]

For me, eliciting that frame of mind is my lifeline. For me, I watch an old Disney movie and listen to Disney music (combination of something I enjoyed but forgot about. Video and audio stimulation works for me at least a little)

[corey658 in reply to corey658]

It’s also wicked simple. Watching a mr. rogers episode is another example. Zero to be ashamed about

[Hidden in reply to corey658]

Mr Rogers us so calming and nice. Also carol Burnett, Lucy.

[Hidden in reply to corey658]

Which Disney was your favorite? I always liked Willy Wonka, escape from witch mountain. Plus a few others. I just rather not do it alone.

[corey658 in reply to Hidden]

There was really no clear cut favorite for me. Some in this group were Cinderella, Snow White, beauty and the beast. Ideally anything that I knew from pre-6 years old about

[corey658 in reply to corey658]

Any family updates?

[cclun200]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Have you considered joining a healthy social group like a church group, or an exercise class at the YMCA etc. so that you can get out there and open yourself up a little. I used to feel like that too but once I started making friends and share my difficulties, things got much better. Please don't deal with this alone. Is your family in the area?

[Hidden in reply to cclun200]

Not close to any family. I have thought of going to these groups but feel so insecure, and too old for all this.

[cclun200]

Please don't think that you are too old for these groups and do give it a try. I know it is hard when you feel insecure, but a healthy social group will help you open up and people are generally nice and will not judge you. It will be much easier to overcome this feeling of despair if you step out of your comfort zone.