Good news still leaves me feeling lonely

[pug_girl]

Yesterday I was told I got an interview at the grad school of my choice (Duke University).. that was SO exciting! Until I didn't really have anyone to tell. I mean, I told my family obviously. They were super excited for me, but they're all miles away from me so it was all through technology. I also told my 4 roommates, but they also just said congrats through text message and called it good. I feel selfish for wanting more attention for this, but this is a HUGE accomplishment! So yesterday, after the initial excitement, I was left with a feeling of loneliness. All I wanted to do was be able to call a boyfriend and tell him. Maybe he would come over later, actually give me a real, physical hug. Maybe we'd go out and celebrate. I know that's not too much to ask for because I see it happening in couples all around me. Where's my guy? Where's my support system? Where's my happiness? I hate that I'm gauging my happiness off of whether or not I have a boyfriend, but without one I have no one to talk to about the good and the bad stuff happening in my life. Without one I am completely and utterly alone.... I don't want to be alone anymore.

[Hidden]

Girrrl! Why do you sound like me many years ago?! I know it is so hard to not have someone to share your accomplishments or hard times with, but please let me encourage you to hang in there. Your journey "alone" (Your not alone because God is with you every day, we just can't see him. We see him in everything actually, anyways...) will one day be your testimony to many in the future. We want to have what we want, now instead of when God has it planned out for us. Trust me when I say this, "It is going to be so worth the wait!" See, you have to focus on you for the moment so that you will be more than enough for your future spouse. He has to get his stuff together too, you know. Then when the time comes, you are going to be INCANDESCENTLY HAPPY with who God made specifically for you. So don't go rushing out to find a date either. You are on the right path right now. You can't rush the blessings. The best is yet to come. Then you two will sit together on the front porch of your paid off house sharing the stories of your journeys before you met. You know how I know this? Simply because God has done it for me. We(my husband and I) are choosing the colors for our house and cabinetry this weekend for our forever home this weekend! Talk about geeked, girl! So in the meanwhile, write down a list of what you are looking for in your future husband. Write down what your dreams are for you two and your family so that you can look back on it later when it happens. I couldn't find my list, but my husband definitely completes my list and me. He was worth the tears during those "lonely" moments. I am so grateful to have him...

I just can not wait for you to have your day girl! But we will wait with you! You got me over here about to cry from reminiscing. So... BIG HUGS! Keep your chin up and keep striving to be a better you. Inspiring song for you:

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[Hidden]

I love the advice My1Friend offered. It’s so spot on!!! So the only thing I want to add to that is ...did you say DUKE 💃🏽🎉 🎊 ! That is awesome! Start prepping and skip on over there and slay that interview. The man God has for you is probably sitting outside the dorm waiting for you. Get going girlie 😊

[Justswimming]

Congratulations thats awesome!

[Hidden]

Go get em girl! I'd be poppin' my collar too!

Relationships will come in time.

[gogogirl]

I am from another generation, but this is a HUGE accomplishment! Congrats! What is your major? I guess this is one of the consequences of tech- not getting a message in person. Hey, part of me is still discovering in my 60s!

[Hidden]

I'm sorry you are feeling so lonely. Please know that everyone feels lonely at times - even those people with boyfriends and spouses. At times loneliness has encouraged me to reach out to others and God. Congratulations on your accomplishment. That truly is amazing and I'm happy for you.