As the title says, I am new to this group, but not new to anxiety. I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, agoraphobia and panic disorder in 2003. Since then depression and social phobia have been added to the mental health diagnosis's. I have done the therapy, the medication (ssris, benzos mostly) Currently I am on clonazepam .5mg 2x daily, ssris don't treat me well. I have just recently begun therapy again and managed to find one that comes to my house which is very beneficial as it's hard to get out atm.
In feburary though things got a lot tougher on me. I woke up with swollen red/rashy eyes. It took me a few months to see a doctor (recently moved to a new state and had to wait out insurance and to get in for first appointment). My primary diagnosed me with heliotrope rash, I'm still waiting for the rheumatologist to call me for my appointment, though the blood work my primary did showed no sign of autoimmune disease.
This rash has basically been the straw that broke the camels back. Not only does it seem to amplify my anxiety when I have it, but the lack of any confidence any time I look in the mirror is devastating. It's painful, almost like a sunburn some days, my vision gets blurry especially when my eyes swell causing more anxiety. I'm constantly fatigued (not sure from the disease itself of the depression).
I lack a support system, my roommate who's like family to me is the only person I have irl. He has helped me tons, but isn't around much so most days I am alone, sometimes for days at a time so I have 0 socialization outside some online friends. I guess that's what brought me here. How do you guys deal with the isolation and not let it add to your depression/anxiety? Does anyone else here have experience with having an autoimmune disease on top of anxiety? If so, any tips on how to handle it?
Sorry for the long post, there's still tons i'm missing, but I'll cut it here for now. Any support or advice is welcomed.