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[mommyof22011]

I just joined this site in hopes of getting some support and to find others who deal with some of the same things I do. I'm 27, became a mom at 16 and was shortly after diagnosed with depression. I went through with the therapy and being bounced from one med to the next before I finally gave up and just dealt with it. At the time I was also in a very unhealthy relationship that I allowed to take over 4 years of my life. I didnt learn enough from that one and went on to have another two emotionally abusive relationships taking up another 3 years of my life. The middle one i ended up pregnant again and my daughter suffered from the stress of my relationship. She stopped growing in utero and was born preterm. She was supposed to be born not breathing on her own, luckily she was and aside from her small size she suffered nothing more. I cut him out of the picture completely when my daughter was about 4 months old after he threw her in her car seat because he was angry at me. At this point I was also diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety. Fast forward to the past year or so. Allot of people my age have died around me from various different factors. I now have a ridiculous amount of health anxiety. Over the weekend i went to the ER because my arm was numb and weak, I was admitted...for once it wasn't just anxiety. Now tho I have even more anxiety because I don't have all the answers I'm looking for. I was admitted for 3 days, had 3 MRIs a chest xray lumbar puncture and all I know right now is my lyme reflex came back high. I'm petrified that I'm going to die from this, I have two little girls who need me. Does anyone else have any of these problems? Especially the lyme...how long have you had it? What was your treatment? Did you fully recover? What is the prognosis??

[mommyof22011]

I'm hoping it'll help, trying to keep it all in definitely doesnt. Thank you for your reply

[Anxiousjy]

Mine started too after having my first child.

[mommyof22011 in reply to Anxiousjy]

How old were you? I was 16 with my first and it seemed to get worse after my 2nd when I was 21

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

I had postpartum depression followed by an anxiety disorder with my first. I became hypochondriac too. My second pregnancy was smooth! Didn’t have anxiety the whole time even after. Now two years later My anxiety is back and I think I even have OCD.

[mommyof22011 in reply to Anxiousjy]

Mine started as postpartem as well, I could control it more at that point tho. As the years passed and more bad things occured it all got worse and now feels like I have absolutely no control. More bad things led to more bad diagnoses and now I'm just so overwhelmed all the time.

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

What’s you diagnosis?

[mommyof22011 in reply to Anxiousjy]

Depression, anxiety, PTSD, panic and hyperventilation syndrome

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

Sorry to hear that. I am waiting for an OCD diagnosis as I have been bombarded with intrusive thought of harming other people especially my family.

[mommyof22011 in reply to Anxiousjy]

I hope youre able to get what you need shortly I gave up on looking for medical help, medication doesnt seem to work well with me or they just tried the wrong ones but I hate feeling like a lab rat

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

I can handle my thoughts now and they don’t seem to bother me as much as before. My psychiatrist is one if not the best here in our country. He told me that it’s my anxiety. I was scared that ai might hurt my family without me knowing it. But that how anxiety works, it latches to what’s important to you. I’m just thankful that my sister is a doctor and I can consult with her anytime.

[mommyof22011 in reply to Anxiousjy]

That's what I need to do is learn to control them just haven't mastered the art of that quite yet. I suppose it's probably a learning process to undo everything your body has done. I just wish I could figure it out. I wish I had a doctor in my family, was diagnosed with lyme over the weekend. The questions are currently consuming me

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

What intrusive thoughts do you have?

[Anxiousjy in reply to mommyof22011]

I was 18 when I had my first child.