A lone and confused

Hi I'm 29 years old , I've went through pure hell with someone, I'm trying to forget but I can, I found out I have PTSD

[Strongheartforever]

Pure hell is a place we know well. We are your family. Here, you belong, we embrace all your tears, we walk along side you through the fire. Keep walking. You are growing through this torment. We all have ptsd from terrible events. But it’s gone, the past is done. The future doesn’t exist either. Your mind wants you to stay behind or ahead. Your spirit exists only here and now. And here and now is ALWAYS safe. It’s all you ever truly experience. You are safe my friend. You are now surrounded by folks who understand and will keep you afloat. Stay here, tell us more, you are anonymous and you can unload the story and be done with it. All that lies ahead is pure possibility. It’s a clearing, it’s pure, it is freedom and you are in control. You have your health and that means there’s no excuse for not achieving greatness. You’ve seen the depths of hell, you’ve been there. The only way now is up, out of the well, into the light! This isn’t fluff talk. You have more power than you are aware of. Give. Give your love and be generous with your love and all that you put out will boomerang back and fill your heart with peace. Know that you deserve a partner who will love you down deep to your marrow. You must also learn how to be a worthy partner, how to support someone and have a foundation of self respect beneath you built on your own positive actions and strengths. This is life. Build up, break down. Hard. Fall down HARD and it hurts really bad. Get up slow and put one foot in front of the other. You’re on your way.

[Krazie in reply to Strongheartforever]

What glorious reply, Strongheartforever. Thank you for reaching out to this dear troubled soul.

[Krazie]

Dearheart, To be attacked that way by someone you loved and trusted is horrible. I feel so bad for you.

We feel as if we can away and hide, then we always find out we carried it with us. It is no surprise you have PTSD. I wonder if you have sought out a good therapist who specializes in PTSD symptoms? That can be of more help to you than you may realize right now. If you lack the insurance or money for a therapist, an alternative might be looking for a support group that has people who have experienced trauma in their lives. Just getting out there and talking about it with others who have gone through similar ordeals helps. You need help, dear one, to see you through this time in your life. Is your family around? You didn't mention them.

I am sending you blessings and hugs of peace and safety. Take good care of yourself. Things will get better as time goes on, and you get help.

[Hidden in reply to Krazie]

My birth father he doesn't care growing up he was never around his aunt my great-aunt she raised me when I was about 11 she sent me to Florida to him and I ended up in foster care system have my life I'm going through the same thing with my mother when I was younger I never understood why I feel like he doesn't care about me so I don't care about him he's never been there for me

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I just moved to South Carolina with my aunt earlier this month she's 82 but it's hard to talk to her it's like she forgets things and don't remember when I try to explain it to her it stresses me out because I feel like she doesn't want to listen or doesn't want to know I tried to express the way how I feel but I just end up crying all over again I just feel so alone

[Krazie in reply to Hidden]

Oh, precious one, what a hard life you have had. I wish so much that I could scoop up all the broken hearts, and mend them.

Your auntie sounds as if she has troubles with her brain. It isn't her fault. It happens sometimes with age. Please be patient with her. I bet anything she would listen, if she could. But we are here now to listen. You can tell us as much, or as little as you like.

You will get through this, and you will be even stronger than you are today. Your trials in life will have taught you many things. You can use what you have learned to help others.

I want you to believe what a valuable person you are. I want you to look in the mirror and tell yourself how much you have to offer. Because those are all true..........you just have to believe it. Look at what a beautiful face you have. It is not your fault that your mom and dad didn't look after you as they should have. I don't know them, but I am guessing that life was too overwhelming for them. It isn't your fault. You are an adult, now, and you can make life better for yourself.

[Hidden in reply to Krazie]

I try say hard as I can

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I try as hard as I can

[Krazie in reply to Hidden]

Keep on trying. You will be a winner in life!!

[Hidden in reply to Krazie]

I will but sometimes I think my aunt is trying to drive me crazy

[Krazie in reply to Hidden]

it's hard to be around people whose minds are no longer intact. hang in there. Be patient.

I am closing out for the night.

Sweet dreams, and have a restful night!