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10:15 PM - 3/5/18

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I actually worked out tonight for thirty minutes and I absolutely hate sweating but I feel better. I feel more like myself.

I have felt so much love from all of you and I just wanted to say that even in these past couple of days, I have not felt alone once. Even though we are all technically strangers, I feel that I am among close friends whom I have known for years.

I cannot believe I have not discovered this community earlier - it is truly amazing and I can already feel my life going towards a better path.

All my life, I have struggled with taking care of myself. Nobody takes the time to listen anymore and show compassion and at first, I was quite surprised to see all my friends here respond so quickly and with so much care. Yes, I consider all of you my close friends!

I feel comfortable confiding in each of you and I haven’t been able to do that with this level of comfort and security since I was a little girl.

I am trying to bring out the little girl in me again - the true Christina. It is hard because of what life has put me through but I am determined to be her again. I want to be silly, carefree, compassionate and outgoing. I want to LAUGH TILL I CRY!!! I want to smile so much throughout the day that my cheeks are sore. I want so much and I have never felt that to be possible until I have met you all.

With everything you are going through, each of you still take the time to care for me and one another. If that does not say something about how amazing of a person you are, I really don’t know what will.

Thank you for saving me. I wasn’t expecting it but I’m so damn happy it did.

I love you all! ❤️

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Vonnah profile image
Vonnah

Beautiful sweet post❤

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newhope in reply to Vonnah

You are a beautiful and sweet person! ❤️

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Vonnah in reply to newhope

Awwww😘❤ thanks and so are you! Heyyyy......just read your profile bio.....ayeeee we both 20 years old!!!!! Maybe we can be friends on here😂😜

I need a friend whose around my age! Plus i need some serious workout motivation lol😂

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newhope in reply to Vonnah

Girrrrllllll. I GOT YOU!! We will motivate each other!! ❤️❤️❤️

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Vonnah in reply to newhope

Hahahaha!😂 👍 sounds like a plan! Can i private chat you?

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newhope in reply to Vonnah

Of course! We’ll have to talk some tomorrow - I’m about to get to bed! It’s 11:02 PM here and I gotta be up early. Ughh 😩😩

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Vonnah in reply to newhope

Alright i gotcha! Have a goodnight!😄👋

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newhope in reply to Vonnah

Hey, you too! Talk to you tomorrow! 😋😋

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Vonnah

I plan on starting to work out to but for the first time in my life😅 i hate sweating too but never exercised before(i know that's bad😰) but i just wanna make my stomach flat like how it was when i was in middle school. So i can get a belly button piercing!!!!!!😆 i want one so bad but i want to lose a few pounds from my stomach. I just need motivation and stuff to start working out. I just got a new job and that has made me feel happy and positive on moving forward in my life so i can do better to take care of myself.

I haven't taken good care of myself either so i understand. With my new job i will start from scratch and take the next steps to start my mental health recovery. And to change and adapt into a better and more healthy lifestyle by exercising, eating healthy, getting therapy, yoga, etc.☺

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newhope in reply to Vonnah

Oh goodness. Believe me, I am so bad about keeping a workout routine but when I actually bring myself to actually DOING it - I feel so good. And yes - I want a flat tummy toooo... my boyfriend hates the idea of a belly button piercing but I waaant anyway. And a little tattoo on my right hip. 🤪

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Vonnah in reply to newhope

Haha i bet it does take some getting used to for sure! The tat sounds cool too!

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old-soul

A little advice, for what it's worth. Honest whole foods. Cut a truckload of high fructose corn syrup. (If your not in the habit of cutting it from your diet, you can cut a ton of it REALLY fast. It doesn't have to be 100% elimination, but you can cut a ton really easilly, because It's in everything. Actual sugar is better for you) No chemical sugar substitutes. (Aspertime, Splenda, Nutrasweet, ect = NO Plain refined sugar or Sylvia extract 👍👍) Meat, eggs, veggies, grains and dairy. REAL food.

Add this basic change in diet to exercise and you won't be fithing yourself. Oh, and NEVER EVER buy processed foods that say, "low fat." The fats in a good diet are ESSENTIALS to health, and also what makes your body say, "I'm not hungry now." Foods marketed as low fat have way more sugars, salt, calories and a long list of crazy chemicals.

Don't just take my word for it. Just take a peak at the ingredients and calories per serving on the labels of two similar products on the store shelves, on "regular" and one "low fat." You'll see. ;)

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newhope in reply to old-soul

Yep! That’s what I’ve been doing recently. Feeling a lot more bouncy - it’s nice! 😊

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old-soul

There ya go little sis. Nothing better than offering a suggestion I KNOW to be based in fact to a new friend, and viola, 30 minutes later, SUCCESS! Who doesn't love instant results? lol

Ok, I get it, you'd already started doing those things. Still, It's a recent change you've made, and sure enough, there's a new pep in your step. One word of warning - don't get carried away with going totally radical nuts with it. The best dietary and exercise habits are natural and not the central focus of your life, ya know?

It's always nice to have more people finding this little corner of the 'net and living in the solution rather than living in the problem. Study hard. Us grumpy old folks are countin' on you youngin's to fix all the crap our crazy parents screwed up. Trust me, many of us have tried and still are trying our best, but fresh re-inforcements are very appriciated! lol

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newhope in reply to old-soul

Yes! Thank you, friend! I am trying to not think too much about “I have to be healthy the rest of my life” but just to remind myself to be happy and have in the back of my mind that exercise and eating right does make a difference. The last time I made it “my life,” every time I would slip, wowza. You’ll see me in the drive thru of Panda Express and coming home with Kung Pao Chicken and a Dr. Pepper. Was not good for me at all. So I’m trying not to make it a big deal but slowly make it a constant priority that’s stress-free. :)

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Annabanana0715

I don’t know you at all since I just now joined this page, but OMG I’m so happy for you Christina!! 😆 Motivating myself to exercise is almost impossible so seeing someone who is probably in a similar position as me say that they did it makes me so happy!! You’re killing it and I’m sending you love!!!!! 💗💖💗💖💗💖💗

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newhope in reply to Annabanana0715

Thank you so much!! We will get there!! ❤️❤️❤️

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old-soul

You know, for what It's worth, there is a group here on heath unlocked that focuses on exercise. I don't know how good it is because it's not something I struggle with and therefore not one I participate in, but I thought I'd mention it.

It's awful nice to also have some easy, I'd not all-together light-hearted convo here too. If all I EVER focus on is "my problems" then it can quickly begin to feel like problems are all I have, if that makes any sense.

Regarding exercise, there are so many fun things to do that require, "accidental exercise" I haven't needed to really give it much thought. Think about it. Whether it's team sports in pick-up vollyball, baseball, football or soccer games, or tennis, racketball or handball, bicycling (which I do miss, but can no longer do due to injuries in my shoulders and neck as well as carpal tunnel in both hands, but oh well), or about a bajillion other things I love to do, why would I ever find exercize a chore?

A bit mote outside of the box is the fact that I have an extremely varied skill-set, but because I love to work with my hands, my hobbies keep me pretty darned active too. I have a horsepower addiction, for one, so when I'm not building or improving on my own stuff, there always seems to be someone wanting me to pit the magic touch on their bike, car, jet-ski, whatever. If you don't thing that requires "accidental exercise" then you haven't spent any real time with wrenches in your hands.

Anyhow, I have paperwork and deadlines to deal with this morning. A huge source of anxiety and depression in my world. I have a real problem with the fact that the piece of paper is always more important than the person holding the piece of paper. I have had my life jacked up by paperwork jams on more than one occasion, and have had paperwork intentionally shuffled to the bottoms of piles in order to deny me things like safe housing.

So many people can be incredibly heartless toward people they don't know. That's one of the things I find so refreshing about this place. People of widely varrying ages, backgrounds, economic levels, and every other description and here we are, as a community, offering support and encouragement with little care about "differences."

Sure, I have encountered a few that aren't entirely my cup of tea, but I wish them no harm. I just let them be, and they seem to do the same. I am so completely ok with that.

As I lime to say, God bless us, and HEAVEN HELP US! :)

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newhope in reply to old-soul

Nicely said!!! 🌟🌟

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