I was sitting by the river Thinking. This old couple asks me what wrong? I said that don't have anything. Nothing makes me special, maybe I don't want to believe because I got what I desire to feel pain and darkness. It is my heart. A lot of people live by this thing loving yourself, hope, faith, patience, the universe, stay positive, do what makes you happy, surround your yourself with people that care about you and the list goes on.
It not about positive or negative, I live in the real world where you are going to get hurt, you feel pain, win or lose, be successful or unsuccessful, the list goes on.
I realize that people like me just don't belong in that world. We are not worthy of love, we see pain, we save our friends from falling, we courage are friends to keep moving forward and be happy without us and much more.
Some of my friends and people I care about looking at me like am a freak and he doesn't desire anything but pain, he needs to die.
Thinking about shutting it off