MR. Anxiety, Why Must You Ruin My Life?

[Babycakes02]

My entire life I have had anxiety. Always feeling nervous and scared about things that I felt no other human being gets upset about or so nervous about that they physically can’t function properly. I’ve had countless numbers of therapists none that I felt were listening to me. I stopped with therapist and turned to medication. Lately my anxiety meds haven’t been working amd have been causing me to feel very anxious and depressed. The things I get so overwhelmingly anxious about make me feel depressed because I feel like I’m the only person that feels anxious about these things. For example: After high school I went to college to better myself and my future. Going into college I knew what I wanted to do for the rest of my life and I was determined to do anything to succeed and start my future with a career that I would love. Fast forward to graduation, I finished school and I was super excited to start working. But then Mr. Anxiety hits me and I start to panic and feel nervous about starting something new and then depression swoops in and I start to feel worthless and that I’m not good enough. For some odd reason I can’t shake these emotions and I start to have panic attacks. I start to question myself amd everything that I am. Why am I like this? Why did I go to school to become something I worked so hard for and now that it’s hear I’m terrified to start? Anxiety and depression have been a major set back in my life and I’m tired of it. I don’t know how to cope with it and not coping with it causes exteme panic attacks which then cause me to go through an emotional breakdown. I cry almost everyday for no apparent reason, and feel like I have failed even though I have come so far. I guess I’d just like to know if I am the only person that thinks like this?

[AZ1970]

You are not the only one. The unknown is scary for everyone. Your mind jumps to the worst case scenarios and convinces you that will be the outcome. Our minds lie to us. You have the passion and now the education to do what your heart desires. I can tell you that you are blessed to have that. Not many people get to work in the area that they are passionate about. You will be amazing. Write out some affirmations and read them several times a day. I don't know if you are familiar with DBT, but their affirmations pair two things together that seem to be opposites. It helps me a lot. One example is "New things are scary AND I have the skills to do the job." There is always an AND between the statements. We often have a hard time holding two opposites and think in black and white. You've got this!

[Lyn842]

I'm sorry you're going thru this. I agree with AZ. Our minds do lie to us and we have to fight back with a positive. If you give in to every negative thought and fear you will stay in panic mode. The affirmations are a great place to start. Just Google affirmations. You'll find tons of them. Write down the ones you relate to. You won't believe them yet but you will be re-training your mind. Don't waste the gift you have worked so hard to achieve. Everyone is nervous to job hunt and start a new job but you have to try. A therapist really could help you. Don't give up. Keep searching till you find one You are comfortable with. I wish you the best.

[Samson1953]

pls don't give up. try to get those happy n exciting feelings u had when u were in school.go for a walk n look around the beautiful scenery. say goodbye to Mr Anxiety. keep telling yourself its gona be a good day. do one little thing like clean a drawer or put in an job application n feel good about it. sometimes a pet helps too.

[Samson1953]

Hi Babycakes02. how r u doing?

[Babycakes02 in reply to Samson1953]

Hi Samson1953. I’m doing okay today I haven’t let my mind slip into the negative place it usually likes to go to. Just trying to find new ways to become motivated again and just be happy with myself. Thank you for asking! How are you?

[Samson1953 in reply to Babycakes02]

Hi. Doing good. rode my stationary bike 3 miles. it really helps. I wTch Joel Olsteen while I'm peddling. makes time go a little faster. glad to hear u r good today n tomorrow I knw u will be too 😼

[Elaine1963]

Check out WonderBro YouTube channel. He follows Claire Weekes method for dealing with anxiety.