Confused about my anxiety and panic disorder

[Bmr8]

Before 2 years ago I was the most chilled person ever didn’t even know what anxiety was. Then one day at work I collapsed and thought I was going to die. The ambulance came and it turns out it was a panic attack. Since then I have had horrible panic attacks every day. I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety disorder, panic disorder and mild depression. However most of the time I have know idea why I am having panic attacks they come out of know where even if I’m happy and doing something fun. This has been the hardest 2 years of my life. I went to uni for four years to get my dream job. However this disorder has prevented me from getting my job I went to university for. So now one year out of uni and I’m just working part time in retail because I can’t even go full time because I was having to may panic attacks.

I have no idea why this is happening to me I have a good life and supportive people I’m my life. But my brain seems to disagree

If any one could give me some positive recovery stores or words of advice that would be lovely. Feeing a bit worried I’m going to be like this forever

Thanks 😊

[ChesterArthur21]

As a person who has suffered from anxiety myself I can empathize and am sorry to hear about your panic attacks. A few things I have learned from various websites and podcasts is a) your imagination is much scarier than reality, b) when you start feeling anxious become an anthropologist toward yourself and say “Bmr8 is becoming anxious. But why? Is it a rational reason to become anxious or afraid?” (Ie, Try to analyze your situation objectively.) Also look at your anxiety based on Occam’s razor. C) get perspective. Ask yourself “will this bad thing that has happened affect me 5 minutes, 5 hours, 5 days or 5 years?” We tend to think that bad things will affect us for 5 years when many things only affect us for 5 minutes.

Anyway, just a few coping mechanisms that I hope you will find helpful. Things WILL get better!

[Bmr8 in reply to ChesterArthur21]

Thank you so much 😊

[BonnieSue]

Hi Bmr8,

I'm sorry you're having such a rough 2 years. Anxiety can make you really miserable, can't it? I wonder whether you're seeing a doctor for this? You might want to be on medication that helps you for awhile. You still have to do your part, but the medication helps to bring your anxiety level down from sky high to where you can then deal with it yourself with coping mechanisms such as ChesterArthur21 suggested.

Both myself and a son of mine have GAD. It isn't logical, it just hits you with a nasty amount of anxiety because your body has a disorder and malfunctions where you need it to work. It hit both of us at the same age and with the exact same symptoms and effects. I never told my son what age it hit me, what my symptoms were and so on. He called me long distance to tell me his symptoms and ask my advice on what to do.

It's amazing how a disease can follow its preprogrammed course from 1 generation to another. How is that transmitted? It has to be at conception for this kind of recurrence in a family. That means he wasn't thinking wrong, could have avoided the crisis, or should blame himself. No!! The disease just kicked in when it was programmed to do so, not strongly attuned to anything he was doing or saying.

I offer this information to you so you won't think you did something wrong to cause your disorder. Because people will try to tell you it's something you did, or something you didn't do right...and proceed to tell you how to live. Good suggestions are always worth considering, just don't think "if only I had been doing this all along, I wouldn't have had a crisis at all." That's baloney.

Pm me if you want to talk. Take care of you!

Hugs, Love, and Blessings...☀️🎉🍀💫💜

[Coralrose5 in reply to BonnieSue]

I love this reply and then I saw who wrote it I love it even more!

[Bmr8 in reply to Coralrose5]

Thank you so much for your reply 😊

I am on medication I’m trying my third one now, I just started on it so hopefully it helps because the other 2 didn’t.

And I have just started seeing a psychologist

I’m sorry to hear that you and your son are struggling

I’m 22 and until I was 20 I was the most chilled person ever. Didn’t even know what anxiety was.

I definitely think it does run in families which is unfortunate

Thank you for your reply

It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who feels this way

Do you think it ever goes away?

[BonnieSue in reply to Bmr8]

Yes, it can go away...mine has. Halleluia! Good bye and good riddance! For the last 2 years I have had barely a teensy bit of anxiety in an appropriate situation. Stopped my benzodiazepine 2 years ago. Yet for 26-7 years I needed it at 4mg/day around the clock. Stranger than fiction! And so worth celebrating!

[Bmr8 in reply to BonnieSue]

Thanks amazing to hear

Thanks for sharing that with me it really helps 🙂

[BonnieSue in reply to Coralrose5]

Thank you, Coralrose! Positive feedback is always welcome! It makes taking the time and effort to write this feel worthwhile. 👍🥀🤗🌈💛🐬🍦🥗💜

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I have had this disorder for 25 years starting when I was 13. Now at 37 this is tottally not the way I thought my life would've taken me. I was told that I needed to accept this and work on this every day to do your best, I was told I would have some good days and some bad days. I didn't want to accept it and I still don't, I am working on it. But truth be known, everything happens for a reason in this universe. If it didn't happen I wouldn't be who I am today, do I think I'm perfect? No, but I'm working on putting my trust that this is how it was suppose to be. Don't be so hard on yourself. My advice is to work on accepting it. You would not have learn those lessons you have had this not all happend. Keep facing your fears every day, and remember that you are not the one that is really in control of this (and I'm talking about life.) Just keep doing your part and things will happen as they may. Don't dwell on the time you've wasted. Cherish the good times. I'm severely depressed but good things do happen, so take the time and enjoy them. Don't worry about the past, Don't worry about the future, focus on the good. Good things do still happen, even right now when the world is in chaos, good still happens. Just keep your head up, if I can do this so can you. We are Courageous people!