Struggling

[RobinD13]

My depression is unbearable. I was able to get antidepressants recently but I don’t know if they are working. Life feels like such a burden. I have suicidal thoughts daily and I don’t think I will make it to my 25th birthday in November. I recently moved to a new state where I don’t know anyone and my husband works a lot. I stay home with my one year old and it gets very little lonely. I don’t think I can keep going much longer.

[Red326]

Hi Robin,

My name is Robin too. i am there too! i am going today for meds and i am so nervous about it. what state are you in? you said your new?

[RobinD13 in reply to Red326]

I’m in Georgia

[Red326 in reply to RobinD13]

Georgia has to be pretty.

[fauxartist]

it certainly sounds like your in a crisis...and having a one year old at home is a lot of responsibility....are you sharing with your partner the extent of what your feeling, as this sounds pretty serious and you may want to think of inpatient care if you having suicidal thoughts with a little one to care for.

[RobinD13 in reply to fauxartist]

He knows but I don’t think he knows how to help me. There’s no way we can afford inpatient care.

[fauxartist in reply to RobinD13]

Your finding reasons to not get help....find ways that you can get help....NAMI...suicide hot lines, text crisis centers...if you look online there are numerous help resources, not everything is about money...some actually will help you...Don't give up, keep trying.

No your partner cannot help you ....a professional or someone trained in dealing with crisis will need to help you.

[Lisau2]

It takes a few weeks for most anti-depressants to kick in, I'm not sure if you just began taking them. Please do reach out to others who can help you, and they are out there.

When I had my first child I was about your age and my husband and I had moved 2000 miles away from family for his job. I also remember feeling very sad and isolated. One day while out for a walk, I wandered into a church. Not ever being a religious person, this was my way of reaching out. I broke down in tears as I spoke to the m UK minister. He welcomed us into his church where we made new friends, especially other young mothers and couples whose support helped me through that time. You never know where you might find wonderful people until you try.

Hugs to you! 🤗

[Lyn842]

Oh Robin...I'm sorry you're in so much pain. It will get better. Life constantly changes and so will whatever circumstances that are so affecting you. Is your baby a happy baby? I presume even if he's cranky he does have moments where he is adorable. Do you really want to not be around to watch him grow? It can be lonely when you're stuck in the house and talking baby talk all day with no other adults. Check into whether there's a Mom's group in the area. Just Google it. Go to a park and put your son in a swing. He will love it and laugh like crazy, thus making you smile. Just getting outside walking him in a carriage. People love babies, so you will get lots of hellos and smiles and you'll feel part of the universe. You have happy days ahead, look for things that give you peace. Remember....suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation.