My teeth hurt

[littleturtle]

I’ve been clenching my teeth for the past few days. I feel a low coming on. I cried in therapy for the first time in a few months. I have suppressed memories. And I don’t want to know what really happened. Things are changing in my life and I feel like the safe bubble I’m in is going to pop. Plus I have to make life decisions like what state to move too. I don’t know. Those thoughts were all sporadic but maybe that’s because i feel direction less which make me question my purpose

[b1b1b1]

The only thing I can respond to is the teeth clenching. Try not to do it, as it can lead to very painful and difficult to treat jaw problems. It is good that you do have a therapist who can perhaps help you work through these issues. xx

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Hi littleturtle!

You can always get a mouth guard like athletes use to keep you from clenching your teeth, especially at night. Just boil it and bite!

I promise that you have a purpose...one designed specifically for you and your talents. If your bubble bursts, you will be given the strength and tools to handle it. Try to be as positive as you can and face your fears head on as they will eventually catch up to you anyway. I hope you have some peace of mind!

[magnoliaLA]

I agree with GraditudeFirst about the mouth guard, I have one myself, I’ve gnawed through three others already but I do find then helpful. I know the pain in the jaw that you are talking about, the physical sign of anxiety. I can see you have a lot of anxiety and that’s okay. You are clearly struggling , and I’m sorry this time is so painful for you.

I can’t say that I have any suppressed memories, but I know there are a lot of things in my family history that I don’t know. Our minds naturally want to fill in the gaps once they become conscious to us. I can’t promise, but I do strongly believe that our brains will come up with the worst possible scenarios to the roots of our pain. Usually it’s not as bad as what we think it could be. So ask yourself if the fear and agony over what you don’t is worth than learning the truth. I don’t think the anxiety you’re feeling will truly go away until you deal with this.

You should be proud that you can be vulnerable and cry in front of somebody. That is truly a healthy thing, as uncomfortable as it may feel. I wish I could let go like that.

I’m sorry that you are going through this. It fucking sucks. To be super cliche I’ll quote some wise individual; “You can’t get out without going through”. Look at what you have already accomplished, you are braver than you think. And you have a community of support to help you through. We are here for you. I am here for you. You can always message me. Sorry this post went on forever. You are worth it.