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I want to live

Weaty
Weaty

I wanna live, like really live. Like when I was a child. I'm not saying I want to be naive but I'd really love to actually smile and be happy, not think so negatively all the time, I want to go out and be social instead of always hiding in the background. I miss the old me the me I've lost. Frankly I miss Onwaba Beauty (That's me)

I need to find myself cause I've lost myself. Where can I find me???

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I know what you mean. I definitely didn’t appreciate being carefree. Obviously I can’t go back to that but part of what I find scary is finding the new me who can function and be happy with myself. I have a lot doubt that I can accomplish that.

Weaty
Weaty
in reply to GreenBird

I think just understanding this new me and accepting her is my issue. I don't like this person I am

GreenBird
GreenBird
in reply to Weaty

I don’t like myself right now either but I really don’t want to accept myself as I am. I want to find a version of me I can at least live with without the excessive negativity. Are you in treatment?

Weaty
Weaty
in reply to GreenBird

I'm on medication going for a check up with my gp to see if it's right for me, I guess.

The only way to be a better version of you/us is to accept who/what we are now in order to move on to someone better.

I just feel as tho I'm in denial cause I'm struggling so much to move on to find a better me. If that makes sense

GreenBird
GreenBird
in reply to Weaty

It makes a lot of sense. Do you feel that the meds are helping?

Weaty
Weaty
in reply to GreenBird

Sometimes

GreenBird
GreenBird
in reply to Weaty

I was on a bunch of different meds and dosages and none of them helped. It was very frustrating.

Weaty
Weaty
in reply to GreenBird

Extremely but hopefully I'll find my correct dosage and strength soon

GreenBird
GreenBird
in reply to Weaty

I hope they give you the help you need

I understand. Freedom, curiosity, optimism, acceptance and love. I want more of this and less of negative self talk, critism, judgements and loneliness. Only I can change it...little by little. We are worthy of it all

Imakook
Imakook
in reply to ABeth

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Weaty
Weaty
in reply to ABeth

So true!

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