I want to live

[Weaty]

I wanna live, like really live. Like when I was a child. I'm not saying I want to be naive but I'd really love to actually smile and be happy, not think so negatively all the time, I want to go out and be social instead of always hiding in the background. I miss the old me the me I've lost. Frankly I miss Onwaba Beauty (That's me)

I need to find myself cause I've lost myself. Where can I find me???

[GreenBird]

I know what you mean. I definitely didn’t appreciate being carefree. Obviously I can’t go back to that but part of what I find scary is finding the new me who can function and be happy with myself. I have a lot doubt that I can accomplish that.

[Weaty in reply to GreenBird]

I think just understanding this new me and accepting her is my issue. I don't like this person I am

[GreenBird in reply to Weaty]

I don’t like myself right now either but I really don’t want to accept myself as I am. I want to find a version of me I can at least live with without the excessive negativity. Are you in treatment?

[Weaty in reply to GreenBird]

I'm on medication going for a check up with my gp to see if it's right for me, I guess.

The only way to be a better version of you/us is to accept who/what we are now in order to move on to someone better.

I just feel as tho I'm in denial cause I'm struggling so much to move on to find a better me. If that makes sense

[GreenBird in reply to Weaty]

It makes a lot of sense. Do you feel that the meds are helping?

[Weaty in reply to GreenBird]

Sometimes

[GreenBird in reply to Weaty]

I was on a bunch of different meds and dosages and none of them helped. It was very frustrating.

[Weaty in reply to GreenBird]

Extremely but hopefully I'll find my correct dosage and strength soon

[GreenBird in reply to Weaty]

I hope they give you the help you need

[Atimetoheal]

I understand. Freedom, curiosity, optimism, acceptance and love. I want more of this and less of negative self talk, critism, judgements and loneliness. Only I can change it...little by little. We are worthy of it all

[Imakook in reply to Atimetoheal]

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[Weaty in reply to Atimetoheal]

So true!