Or hurt myself. I wanna punch the wall and/or head butt it. I don't care which. I've lost it. I have lost it. I'm not here anymore. Bipolar has taken over and I give up. If I can't get help, why bother? Let it rule. Wen I get help, I'll think about coming back. If I die before then or get put into a mental institution, then so be it. I've had enough.
I don't want to do this anymore