Walking the plank

[Butterfly2Be]

I feel like I know how I'm gonna end it all. Just waiting for the right time. I've replayed scenarios in my mind. When I'm socializing with people, I tell myself this is the last time we will speak. This anxiety has got the best of me. Im out of breath and have no wind to fight back. Im,just so tired

[-Poetic2]

Having worked in mental health for years those are fighting words! Here you would be on your way to the nearest mental hospital in lockdown! I am sorry but those words are easy to say,..?? Please be careful with yourself, take care and make a dr or therapy appt or check yourself in. Hug

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to -Poetic2]

When I felt the same, I went to the hospital. I was afraid that the thoughts are becoming too real. Please consider giving yourself chance to heal! I must tell you that in that hospital I felt better than ever, than anywhere else. They truly helped me !!!

[Hidden]

Hi Butterfly!

I’m so sorry you’re struggling with suicidal thoughts...I’ve been there and understand what a bad place that is for you. I sincerely hope that you’re frequenting a Psychiatrists office or a therapist. Antidepressants help me and talking to someone who gets it does too. I have to take action to help myself improve my mood, but that’s hard to do when you’re obsessing over suicide. I encourage you to seek professional help as soon as possible! You are precious and uniquely made to be here on this earth! Please don’t doubt that. We don’t get to choose when we die. You are important and deserve some relief from your thoughts...please don’t give in to your dark thoughts! They can be silenced...sending you hugs!!

[fauxartist]

Many of us get to a point in our lives with depression that we go down that dark road, but the reality is....we just want our lives to change...we want something different, better, but when we are actively in the depths of our disease....we don't at the moment see a way out.

Are you seeing a therapist....or on medication.....this is a disease that is not your fault...but you do have to make the choice to change it.....it's so easy these days to just say you want it to be over with....so change it........you need help to do that....

Ending your life is exactly that....no coming back...final.....never knowing the wreckage left behind...the ripple effect on everyone around you....you may be gone...but the damage done is forever. Don't think this is the easy solution....it's not......the hard solution is to get help....stop and think.....what you could have done in your life after getting some help to cope with this disease....never knowing what you would have missed out on...love, family, great adventures.....all lost for one bad choice in a bad moment in time...and that's it....it's just a moment.....you can get help to get passed this moment....and get help.

[Hidden]

You don't realize how important you are! There is only 1 you!!! Please please be gentle with yourself...get the help you need. I'm here for you!!! Big Hugs for You!

[nightingale1977]

Hugs..... sorry that it has been so hard..... please go gentle with yourself and I hope you know, there is light at the end of the tunnel.. Please stick around. We are here to journey with you and support you. ARe you able to check yourself into any facility to keep yourself safe till you are ok? Praying for you. God bless...