End of my rope. Help.

[carolruef524]

I have been dealing with anxiety and depression after my oldest child walked out of my life. My husband blamed me. He’s still blaming me. I have worked very hard to feel better and get stronger. He has become a verbal abuser. I’m terrified of being alone.

[hurtingheart1]

I'm so sorry to hear how you're feeling!!😞Please don't feel alone!! 💐🌸

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I’m so sorry, no one deserves to be verbally abused and blamed.

Do you have somewhere you can go to talk about this. Not sure what country you are in if in the uk there is always women’s Aid. womensaid.org.uk

if you are not in this country do you maybe have something similar, you could approach.

Keep writing here, it helps.

Best wishes

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[Cassie2178]

Hi, I had a similar problem but it was my parents walking out on my life when I was an adult. I grappled a long time but found comfort in an online community that lead me to Focus on the family. focusonthefamily.com/lifech... or call 1-855-771-HELP (4357) weekdays 6:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. (Mountain Time). Another wonderful resource I found was, New Life Ministries at newlife.com/ They have podcasts and available counselors to help. It was a life saver for me. If you want to chat any time message me. Cassie

[carolruef524 in reply to Cassie2178]

I am so so sorry about your parents. How incredibly painful. Thanks so much for the encouragement. I feel like dying.

[Natasha_1994]

You are not alone. Take care of yourself. Big hug!!

[Cassie2178]

Hi Carolruef524, I've been under the weather this week and I am not only checking my messages. Sorry for the delay in responding. I think feeling like dying is part of the grieving process and it is even more difficult when you know the person in alive and well living a life apart from your own. Have you used any of the resources I recommended? I don't want to appear pushy but they helped me so much that words cannot express. Sometimes I found in my quietness (filled with such major sorrow) that I was encouraged by listening to others. I'll check back in a couple of days or you can direct message me at [e-mail]. Please take care of yourself. Hugs, Cassie

[carolruef524 in reply to Cassie2178]

Thanks so much, Cassie. I appreciate your help.

My psychiatrist changed my meds a bit. He is new to me. I feel crummy about all the meds I take. I think I am on 5 different meds to help the anxiety and depression. Today, I feel great. My husband is trying. I’m trying. But it seems to last about a week and then we have a fight.

I can’t keep this up, and have given serious thought to separation. 37 years. The last 15 have been very rough. My therapist thinks I should have things packed if I have to exit quickly. I feel like he’ll never love this me. He loved me pre-anxiety. His approach to me sounds like 3rd grader. I think most people would have left by now. I have grown children and two grandkids. I can’t stand the thought of splitting up.

[Cassie2178]

Hmmm, this is heavy. Splitting up a family after 37 years is a lot to consider. Although I’m for your physchitrist I think you may need another voice to help you make a balanced choice. Have you considered a faith based marriage counselor? Obviously, I don’t know your entire story but from my experience, even in my own marriage, I know that if I had given up on my marriage when things were most difficult I would now regret it. My husband tried to understand my grief and although he struggled in his own way he was trying. I held on and forgave his weaknesses and our marriage is better than ever. Have you considered marriage counseling? Perhaps before you give up entirely you should see a counselor.