By all accounts I have a great life and so many things to be grateful for. I'm happily married, 2 healthy children, good job, and dont struggle financially, but for the last three months I have been struggling with anxiety depression so badly it hurts. I have a therapist I see weekly and am on medication but this black cloud will not vacate. I have been trying the whole fake it til you make it mentality but it is exhausting even though I am just going through the motions. The part that breaks my heart the most is that I dont even seem to enjoy playing with my children, all I look forward to each day is being able to go back to bed that night. I will have day here and there when I feel alright and life just seems normal again but they are always followed by days or weeks of depressed state. I just feel like the struggle is pointless and want to give up and just hide in my bed, but I know this doesn't make feel better in the moment nor will it help my recovery.. it's so frustrating. I know everyone says that it won't last forever and there are millions of people that have successfully made it through similar, but when in the midst ok f it, it sure seems hopeless.