I am not sure ... where to begin.
I think i have been in state of complete mess since last 5 years... i still cant belive that i may be suffering from depression. I have not seen any doctor yet and i m clueless where to begin... rest if my life is all fine but depression kills the happy part. I am scared nervous and ofcourse want to come out of this state but dnt know how. I shout ... on people i love the most .. i get angry on little things .. i almost every 3rd day think..” why am i even alive” ? Confused whats wrong and how to fix it... i am just living a futile life which i know i dnt deserve. I hate my in laws sometimes... sometimes my job... my life and other times i love all of these. My huge expectations are there ... and othertimes i am complete hopeless. All i am sure is ... there could be something wrong and i need help!!