I saw on the internet that it’s good to write about your problem, and share to people who understand what you’re going through.
The first week of April I finally got a job at Sonic. I wanted to make parents proud of me. Except when I got the job, I’d come home and cry all night. I vomited to the point where I could barely move. I couldn’t eat without it coming back up. I only lasted 2 days and my parents were convinced that I should quit.
I didn’t want to get another job until I went to therapy. The therapist wouldn’t call back for my mom to make me an appointment. I applied at the Vet Hospital a long time ago, and they finally called me back. I thought this would be good for me.
After the interview, I started crying/hyperventilating. My mom told me that I can’t keep doing this. I told her I don’t want to be like this. She told me that I have an appointment with a therapist June 28th. This is way too far away for me. I asked her if there were anyway that I could get it sooner. There isn’t.
Now I’m sitting here typing this as I’m trying not to cry. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to disappoint my parents. I don’t want to fail. I feel like this also goes with my problem of leaving the house. I feel safer at home, and I’ve never been one to like being gone from home too long.
Sorry for the long post. Could use some help.