So, it took me 3 weeks to finally see a psychiatrist. I have already attended 3 psychologist sessions and 4 yoga sessions. The long wait finally ended today and I felt relieve to finally get medication. The appointment was at 9am but they didn't see me until 10:30am and I came in at 8am, which is something that annoys me about most doctors appointment, they never see you at the time you requested.
When I finally got to see the psychiatrist, I soon realized that I did not like her very much. This might be a little bit upsetting for some but over the last few years I have lost my faith in God due to my traumatic experiences throughout my life. I have seen more pain and suffering than happiness. I have met too many people throughout my life who have had such terrible childhood that made me question my faith.
It is not to say that I am angry at God but I have lost my belief in one. It has not made me sad or anything. This is just another stage in my life where I am discovering who I am.
The psychiatrist asked me if I believe in a religion and I told her no. She gave a very judgemental look and if she was trying to hide it, she failed miserably. Soon gave me an almost 30 minutes long lecture on the importance of God and why I should believe in it. She also went on to say that I should be happy to live in a progressive place like the U.S and not the jungle where I came from which is Peru. The religion lecture did not offend me as much as how she talked about my birthplace as less.
I would like to call myself open minded and I do respect that other people have religious views and I would never try to lecture them on athiesm. I would have liked the same respect from a professional. She also basically told me that there is no hope in my recovery since I don't believe in anything greater than myself.
I apologise in advance if my lack of faith offends some. I still live by a moral compass. I just haven't had the Devine intervention some people have.
I also gave my doctor an address to the nearest pharmacist to see if she can send my prescription there electronically. She gave me a bad attitude and told me that she has no time for that. I am afraid that I offended her with my views.
I am considering changing psychiatrist but not sure yet. My sister was mad with her behavior and urged me to look for another psychiatrist. The issues is that it was so hard to find this psychiatrist because my health insurance is bad and not many doctors accept it. Most of the doctors listed have bad reviews. One doctor had a couple of reviews where patient commented that he was prejudice towards people that wore sweaters and called them criminals to their face. Another review was about a mother who had a son dealing with depression and the doctor treated him like trash and offered no help and her son left the office feeling suicidal and hopeless. It sucks because my insurance doesn't offer good doctors and I can't afford better insurance. I am already paying to see a psychologist out of pocket because all the psychologist on my insurance weren't accepting new patients.
To those the read the whole thing, thank you for listening to my rants and I apologise again if some got offended. It is not my intention.