Had a dream. In it, my grandma, Mom, and Dad. Mom kept nagging and nagging that I had to take care of my grandma. I told her I was too tired and stressed and too sad. I started crying in my dream and my dad consoled me. He hugged me and told my mom to back off and leave me alone. And he went on to tell me that I didn’t have to do anything I didn’t want to do.
He always knew how to speak with me. Calm and collective.
My mom has always been so much noise and calamity. But she always gets the point across without holding back.
I am a lot like both of them, but I am my own person with my own voice, thoughts, and needs. I miss my dad so much and one day my mom won’t be around either. It weighed on my heart so much bc they are the only two people who have loved me so unconditionally. But, as I have grown in my faith, God was, is, and will always be with me. My Dad had so much faith while he was alive. I have to remind myself that that’s all he ever wanted from me was to not just get closer to God, but build a relationship with Him.
Anyways, I was just so happy to feel his love for me. He will have passed away 6 years ago this coming July 9. The day before my sons bday...