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Another day battling myself...

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Every morning for the past few years I tell myself to get up, go out, enjoy the day. My mind tells me lay down you're tired, stop trying to sleep worry about everything. It's a real struggle to live everyday but I don't have the balls to ever do anything about it. Doctors look at me like I have three heads. I'm literally destined to be this way forever. Other than my husband I have no one who understands. I'm honestly tired of everything, this life is exhausting. I swear I feel like a broken record every time I see a doctor for help. On top of that, I also have Hashimoto Thyroiditis. My hormones are effed up, joints hurt non-stop but i hate having issues like this define me. I'm a good person that does everything for everyone. My happiness and purpose comes from seeing others around me happy. When you're in pain and tired though sometimes it catches up to you and you get mean and grumpy. Not everyone around you knows how to take it so they back away. Now you're basically all alone in a world of many. ๐Ÿ˜ฃ๐Ÿ’ฉ

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I hear you and understand how you feel.

I hope that helps. Keep trying your best everyday.

here is someone who understands !because i'm suffering the same,apart from the physical, i have skin probs and work hard with supps keepfit,walk etc,feel ill because i made a mistake,i was panicked inro comimg here and its been hell,the man here understands,but.....i need to get back to london,you would know how diff that is now,glad to contact you,it helps to know somewone else suffers, dreadful really !!

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xobrandy211xo in reply to ciley

I'm always available if you need someone to talk too ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’œ

hope you got previous it seemed to just disappear,basically saying feel the same....

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xobrandy211xo in reply to ciley

Yes, I got it ๐Ÿ˜Š

Its hard to not feel grumpy with all of that you have going on and I get how it feels lonely sometimes. . Yup its nice to see others happy. You have a very caring heart. Dont forget to do nice things for yourself. Fighting with our minds and bodies lS super exhausting. I just let myself have a break but my mind isnt on board.

yes,battling with yourself, i belueve its because we are more aware,like a skin less,nothing to be ashamed of,and yes there is precious little realunderstanding,so hope this cheers you a little,kindness,god-bless.i

suffering v much....i need to change 2 situations to survive.i've chosen to write you instead of' exceptional ron'one of those mediums who tell you unnerving things and want money,,....i've had no success with these so called easy , fixes i do believe in higher power asnd have a spiritual helper, but sometimes what is to hand would be best, but there us v little to hand, as i donot share easily,i don't trust, i liked your pic, why i'm writing ,thanks

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xobrandy211xo in reply to ciley

Hugs to you ciley ๐Ÿ’œ let's lean on one another ๐Ÿ˜Š mediums are very good sales people. I believe we can create our happiness we just need to be around positive people and environments ๐Ÿ˜Š

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ciley in reply to xobrandy211xo

thank-y you replying so soon...i have to go out soon and try to change things....the person i will be around is ok, but talks all the time,ceaselessly.

Can you find some goals that are doable and you feel you could accomplish on a daily basis with a little bit (not to much) effort? The idea is to focus on something other than illness...that is something you find worthwhile and meaningful, that you can do and so maybe build up some self esteem. Through a series of small efforts, and the distraction you will find doing them, you can find some self esteem and learn to love yourself a little bit more each day. It could be as little as complimenting someone each day, random act of kindness for people around you, finding something beautiful and expressing appreciation for it daily. Maybe find something in nature that is beautiful and take a picture (or many) of it and build up an album. Instead of clogging up your mind with draining thoughts about failure, illness and hopelessness...start to put some thoughts in there about things that are not so sad..over time see if most of the thoughts that pass through your day are about goodness and beauty and thankfulness...drown those other un-helpful thoughts out.

I too have a chronic pain disorder. Mine is autoimmune in nature. Iโ€™m on biologics ( injections) so I completely understand. I too refuse to allow this to define me, but pain is a whole different beast. I donโ€™t use pain medications I just down right refuse. I exercise everyday. I tell those around me when Iโ€™m feeling angry, that really helps. Before the arguments start I confess that Iโ€™m not feeling well and the arguments donโ€™t happen. I will do this when Iโ€™m confronted with conflict at work I will do the same.

Story of my Life. I can so relate . I feel a little bit better.


I've realised that the energy you give to the world you get back. I force myself to smile everyday to get a dose of sunshine and weird enough it reflects back. I know it sounds weird but it makes a difference.

Value yourself some more and have some downtime for you. Do things that you enjoy, that take pressure off of you, and that are entirely disconnected to the expectations and agendas of other people. That is what I recommend.

Haha.. My Twin ๐Ÿ˜‚

Hang in there. I too feel like I should go out and do things I feel better when I get out. I have major depression with major fatigue and my new meds make me sleep a lot. I have a lot of people close to me in my life that love me though so I am greatful for them and I relate to making others happy and doing for them. Do you also have depression? I have been with my fiancรฉ for over twenty years and he is great. I hear your struggles though and I too struggle on and off. Iโ€™m hoping today will be a good day. I hope it will be a good day for you too. Take care and ok at the positive things you have in your life. At least we are not alone!

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