I have been battaling severe anxiety depression agoraphobia just life in general for years I have hit the bottom. I lost a great job friends my joy you name it. I am an adult and scared out my mind. I thought i had life figured out she'd it seems I'm just watching mines pass by. While i was working the same feelings were still there. Summer is such a trigger for me i have am event to go too .. i am panicking i want to look good feel normal I haven't seen these people in so long. Why can't i just be normal I've never felt so down in all my life. I'm not looking for pity No one gets it because they are not going through it. Do we deserve this nooo ..i just feel trapped everyone says I'm doing it to myself.. how the hell do I start over?