Hi everyone, this is my first time here, and here is my story.
I am 29, have a good career, big family and used to have tons of friends. I work hard and always give a 110%. I was diagnosed with depression 5 years ago and was mostly stable on meds and/or therapy. However, 2 years ago my father passed away, which triggered the worst two years of my life.
I buried my grief since I was determined to finish my last year of collage on time. However, right after graduation on May,2017, i crashed mentally and emotionally. All the sudden, medications are not helping(tried several ones), no motivation to even move from bed, and socially isolated myself.
I lost my job for the first time in my life, I lost 99% of my friends because i never show up, and almost all my family are upset with. I am also pretty sure i was labeled “mentally unstable” by my own cousins. The worst thing is even when try to explain, even when i talk to them about my vulnerabilities, they don’t get it. My family loves me and care about me a lot, but they just don’t get it, and i am so sick of always having to explain myself, always having to ask for their forgiveness. I am seriously considering moving somewhere where no one knows me and have a fresh start, but when everyone is trying to tell you that you’re crazy, it’s hard not to start doubting your decisions.