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Anyone care to help me? I’m sick of repeating this same cycle (becoming depressed over my ex who left my baby and I whilst his mother condones it). I’m 19 and had a good relationship with my ex until I got pregnant and the relationship went downhill. He’s young and immature and isn’t ready to be a dad, up until recently we were still sleeping together (I thought he wanted to get back together eventually but couldn’t because his mum was threatening to disown him if he does). Anyway we’ve had another explosive argument involving family and he says he doesn’t care about me or the baby and now I’m becoming depressed again.

I haven’t got over the break up nor the infidelities and so dealing with the argument is now taking a toll on me too. I know I deserve better and I shouldn’t go back but I feel like nobody understands.

He hurt me to a point I thought about suicide and now I have to pretend like it doesn’t hurt and rebuild my life with the constant reminder every time I look at our baby that I failed to keep us together.

Everybody says when he grows up he’ll come running back but it isn’t fair. I’m 19, younger than him having to deal with this all by myself while his family do not care that he isn’t there for his child because they don’t like me.

Right now I hate myself and the life I’m living because I’ve allowed the situation to take over my life, I binge eat every time I think about him as well as cry every single day. I watch motivational speeches as well as pray daily but nothing seems to be changing

I’m so sad it’s over 😢. The life I planned for the three of us, I don’t know how to get for myself. He was the only person I thought loved me and believed in me and I don’t know how to believe in or love myself anymore

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Calt28

God loves you and so does your child use that as your motivation. Be blessed and have a great day

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peacewmyself

Sounds like its time for you to focus on yourself and baby. Being around constant negativity will hinder you from moving fwd to a better life. I know its hard to think about a life w/o this person but just imagine your life with a partner that truly adores you and your child...know that you deserve better.

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Tanya-T

Thank you both very much 💖💖💖

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Dandelion_45

Next time you look at your baby try to imagine the life you want for him or her. Having an absentee father isn’t always bad I love my mom more then anything in the world and respect her so much for raising me by herself and I’m sure your baby will too. Also try to think positive that this is just an opportunity for your life to become better.

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Missnoname

I wish I had some advice for you, but the truth is, I've been there, and I know there's nothing anyone can say that will help. What I can promise you is that your child is better off without any of those people in his/her life. There will b a day that he is the one mourning his loss when you have long since moved on, you just don't know that yet. Hugs.

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