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Anyone care to help me? Iā€™m sick of repeating this same cycle (becoming depressed over my ex who left my baby and I whilst his mother condones it). Iā€™m 19 and had a good relationship with my ex until I got pregnant and the relationship went downhill. Heā€™s young and immature and isnā€™t ready to be a dad, up until recently we were still sleeping together (I thought he wanted to get back together eventually but couldnā€™t because his mum was threatening to disown him if he does). Anyway weā€™ve had another explosive argument involving family and he says he doesnā€™t care about me or the baby and now Iā€™m becoming depressed again.

I havenā€™t got over the break up nor the infidelities and so dealing with the argument is now taking a toll on me too. I know I deserve better and I shouldnā€™t go back but I feel like nobody understands.

He hurt me to a point I thought about suicide and now I have to pretend like it doesnā€™t hurt and rebuild my life with the constant reminder every time I look at our baby that I failed to keep us together.

Everybody says when he grows up heā€™ll come running back but it isnā€™t fair. Iā€™m 19, younger than him having to deal with this all by myself while his family do not care that he isnā€™t there for his child because they donā€™t like me.

Right now I hate myself and the life Iā€™m living because Iā€™ve allowed the situation to take over my life, I binge eat every time I think about him as well as cry every single day. I watch motivational speeches as well as pray daily but nothing seems to be changing

Iā€™m so sad itā€™s over šŸ˜¢. The life I planned for the three of us, I donā€™t know how to get for myself. He was the only person I thought loved me and believed in me and I donā€™t know how to believe in or love myself anymore

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Calt28

God loves you and so does your child use that as your motivation. Be blessed and have a great day

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peacewmyself

Sounds like its time for you to focus on yourself and baby. Being around constant negativity will hinder you from moving fwd to a better life. I know its hard to think about a life w/o this person but just imagine your life with a partner that truly adores you and your child...know that you deserve better.

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Tanya-T

Thank you both very much šŸ’–šŸ’–šŸ’–

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Dandelion_45

Next time you look at your baby try to imagine the life you want for him or her. Having an absentee father isnā€™t always bad I love my mom more then anything in the world and respect her so much for raising me by herself and Iā€™m sure your baby will too. Also try to think positive that this is just an opportunity for your life to become better.

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Missnoname

I wish I had some advice for you, but the truth is, I've been there, and I know there's nothing anyone can say that will help. What I can promise you is that your child is better off without any of those people in his/her life. There will b a day that he is the one mourning his loss when you have long since moved on, you just don't know that yet. Hugs.

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