Anyone care to help me? Iām sick of repeating this same cycle (becoming depressed over my ex who left my baby and I whilst his mother condones it). Iām 19 and had a good relationship with my ex until I got pregnant and the relationship went downhill. Heās young and immature and isnāt ready to be a dad, up until recently we were still sleeping together (I thought he wanted to get back together eventually but couldnāt because his mum was threatening to disown him if he does). Anyway weāve had another explosive argument involving family and he says he doesnāt care about me or the baby and now Iām becoming depressed again.
I havenāt got over the break up nor the infidelities and so dealing with the argument is now taking a toll on me too. I know I deserve better and I shouldnāt go back but I feel like nobody understands.
He hurt me to a point I thought about suicide and now I have to pretend like it doesnāt hurt and rebuild my life with the constant reminder every time I look at our baby that I failed to keep us together.
Everybody says when he grows up heāll come running back but it isnāt fair. Iām 19, younger than him having to deal with this all by myself while his family do not care that he isnāt there for his child because they donāt like me.
Right now I hate myself and the life Iām living because Iāve allowed the situation to take over my life, I binge eat every time I think about him as well as cry every single day. I watch motivational speeches as well as pray daily but nothing seems to be changing
Iām so sad itās over š¢. The life I planned for the three of us, I donāt know how to get for myself. He was the only person I thought loved me and believed in me and I donāt know how to believe in or love myself anymore