I wish somebody could help me

[Jessica2000]

I can’t see anything that’s worth me living for anymore but I’m also to afraid of attempying suicide and it going wrong. What am I supposed to do

[CazO46]

Hi Jessica , what have tried so far to help improve how you feel? Dispair is a powerful emotion but it doesn't have to be this way or last with proper help, love and compassion X

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your feeling your at this point Jessica....can you talk more about why your feeling this way, what's going on in your life...this is a safe place to share, these are kind and understanding people...many of us have been where your at...

here are a couple of resources I have looked into as well:

suicidology.org/

actionallianceforsuicidepre...

theswordmovie.com/resources/..... It's okay to ask for help

[Concernedparent23]

I'm glad you posted here Jessica although I'm beyond sorry you feel this way at the moment.

It may feel hopeless and overwhelming at the moment but it won't last.

Can you speak to your GP or do you have a therapist?

We're here for you - please keep posting

Sending hugs x

[Jessica2000]

I felt like this before like I don’t belong here I always feel sad and alone and then I met my boyfriend and he was trying to help me now he’s just left me I no longer see any reason to live nothing makes me feel any better and I’ve been to the gp multiple times they offer little help other than the phone number for the Samaritans

[fauxartist]

Your in a terribly sad place in your life right now Jessica, I can't even begin to say words that would in anyway comfort you right now. Your hurting, badly, and your here, your sharing....your trying...that shows us your a survivor. It's pointless in these early days of your loss of your BF to tell you it's going to get better, because it's hard to see that right now....but it does.....I am living proof of that.

After my marriage of 15 yrs was over, ex- was cheating...when they finally left the house, I laid down on the floor in my bedroom and cried like a baby. I didn't care if I woke up the next morning I was so destroyed with the whole thing, and of course blamed myself at first. Many of us go through this, and for some of us, it's especially difficult. I have abandonment issues from my childhood.

Now...you say your boyfriend was trying to help you, and then left you because he didn't feel he could fix you...Well....you may not see it now, but now is a really good time to get help for you, not only with grief and loss, but especially because friends, lovers, and family are all well and good...but they are not professionals, and will often not say or do what you need. A GP is not a therapist....and you need one that can work with you and help you.

[Lisau2]

Jessica..please find a good counselor/therapist to talk to. There is a new beginning for you now, you just need some help opening the door to a better place in life. Keep posting.

Hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

[old-soul]

I have been in the same dark and disparaging place time and time again. I'm not there right this second, and have actually been reasonably okay for maybe a week or so as it stands right now.

I mention this because, you are decinately not alone in your feelings of despair, and I want you to know that. I have had a particularly rough road with the loss of home, family and community support in recent years. This is by no means typical, but it is becoming more and more prevalent.

You may not take much comfort in this, or maybe you will, but the fact that you are clawing your way out of the same hell so many of us have known, and so many more will encounter is teaching you the ins and outs of how to help others to find their way back into the sunlight of life. So, the long and short of it is this: sometimes being able to be helpful to someone more in need of love and understanding than I am in this very moment is the exact medicine I need to keep my own head above water.

Balance is very important to me too, and I only spend a certain amount of time reaching out to others before I mop a floor, do some laundry, mount new tires on my motorcycle or make a pot of soup. So, you see, I get my medicine by trying to offer someone who is where I was as recently as 10 days ago some words of understanding, and the go about the tasks I need to take care of to keep moving further into the light. After awhile when I need rest, I take some time to nap, watch a film, listen to some music, or read, then I maybe sit down and read some posts here, and MAYBE respond to one or two again.

Maybe the balance thing comes from being a Libra, but I do see where those of us, Libra or not, who keep a healthy balance in our lives have less difficulties on a daily basis.

Think about it; balanced diet - balance between work, family/pleasure/play and sleep - balance in our finances - balance between wants and needs, on and on. Balancing between feeling my emotions and setting the emotions aside and looking at the logistics of what I can do today to make my tomorrow better than my yesterday is another biggie. I can't deny and stuff my emotions. They are God given and serve an important purpose, but I can't let my emotions be my only guide either. Facts are pretty imlortant too.

Please, Jessica, hang in there. People here DO care for one another in spite of the fact most of us know VERY little about one another. Stop and think about that. The world has become a whirling ball full of every kind of trouble people can conjure up, yet here is a rather large group that is willing to support one another through thick and thin. Maybe people are getting tired of a selfish and destructive self-centered existence and MAYBE we are part of the beginning of a new era. That includes you, Jessica, if you stick around to see it.

[Hidden]

Hi Jessica.

So sorry for how you feel right now 😞

Check out online ‘talking therapies self referral NHS’ you can self refer. Complete the form online. There is a waiting list, it’s worth the wait. Different areas have different length wait lists, time goes quickly.

I self referred 3 years ago for for cbt at talking therapies, it helped me get into the system ...I learnt such a lot from it. Once the form is received they spoke to me via telephone, I initially had some counselling by phone, then eventually one to one face to face, which lead in to me having mindfulness and other therapies...being honest about how you feel is the very best thing ...I found my gp also took me more seriously once I was in the talking therapies system ...

You deserve support and help to feel better.

Happy to answer any concerns or questions you may have.

All the very best to you x

[EmLee96]

are you doing anything to help yourself? you know you do not have to live like this- there are lots of things that you can do to help yourself. there are medications, therapy programs, family/friends that you can talk to, and so much more. please look for help and don't do anything to hurt yourself. life is worth so much more.

[Jessica2000]

I’m going to speak to the doctors but I am feeling worse everyday things are getting worse and worse and there’s no one I can tell the truth to

[4Cece]

There is a program called The Refuge in Florida and Sierra Tucson in Tucson AZ. They have programs for sexual trauma. I went for something else, but th hey have in patient. Maybe see if your insurance will pay. Some have scholarships too. You gave to ask.