Longing for my old life

[CazO46]

Until 6 months ago I had a pretty good life even though I suffered from daily anxiety I thought I had it under control. I became physically unwell and have not recovered. I have been off work for 4 months and miss my friends and the routine. I'm worried about how I'm going to pay the bills. Hardest thing is not being the wife and mum I should be because o feel unwell a lot of the time. I don't want to be forced to give up work as I will have to sell my house but I can't get the sickness under control. Dr doing what they can but I have a vestibular disorder with migraines which is hard to control. Just needed to let my sadness and deep sense of loss of my past happy life😢😢 thanks x

[fauxartist]

I cannot tell you how sorry I am your going through this, I posted on another one of your posts as well in response to some of your health issues. I do understand probably more than a lot would. I did have to stop working because of the cluster migraines and fatigue than came with menopause....I did end up selling my house. I could no longer do the physical work for fear of having a cluster migraine attack in the middle of a job that I was contracted to do...no getting around it...I was done. Now...my friend....I will tell you....yes...you are going to have to plan for change, it's one of the hardest things I had to do in my life....but I survived, and so will you....your a survivor. I was also doing this huge change of life with depression and anxiety, blah blah also with the other stuff....but somehow...some way...and not without a few bumps in the road...we managed, you will too. Before you get to far down about this, start planning how your going to work your life around your limitations. I am in my sixties now, and had to do this about 9 years ago, start my life over from scratch....it was not easy...but you can do it. You may not know now, but you will find a way. Today I just get by financially, but we do get by and have what we need...we are all okay.

[CazO46 in reply to fauxartist]

Thank so much for the post, it means a lot to me. Taking one day at a time right now but worried for my husband and kids too, it's a big change for us all. They are used to me doing so much and being there for them but right now every day is a struggle. Hopefully I can push on thru and get it under control. I'm glad you are a bit better now, it gives me hope X

[fauxartist in reply to CazO46]

it's okay to let them take some of the load too, mom's usually do most of the heavy lifting, but it's okay to distribute the weight too...

[CazO46 in reply to fauxartist]

Teaching my husband how to cook.... some interesting combinations! But I'm not complaining , he's stepping up and I'm grateful X

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, sorry your brain is letting you down, I have had sever anxiety, panic attacks & depression. They are all related. Please go and talk to your Dr. or a Psychiatrist, there are medications that can help you. I am on a low dose of Buspar, I also have Lorazepam which helps with the anxiety. I also take an antidepressant.

I understand your feelings, but Please do not blame yourself. Be good to You, relax when you can, play with your children,get your husband to take a walk with you, or some one you know. But do not tell others what is happening to you - as few people understand our illness. See if there are support groups in your area. Consider a therapist who specializes in depression/anxiety.

Do fun things for yourself that take your mind off of your illness, I do coloring books (for adults) word puzzles,knitting, there are games on the computer, I select TV programs that will not bring on anxiety/panic, ditto with my fictional reading.

Hope this is of help to you. I send you Love, Big Hugs,Peace - Sprinkle 1. ***

p.s. Write to us, we will give you Love & Support, even advice if you want it. xxx

[CazO46 in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank you so much it means a lot to me. I do what I can to stay positive, can't physically do too much as my balance is poor but hopefully it will improve , thanks again for your kindness X