My old god complex

[shaynokb]

First of all, hello, after a long time, hope everyone has a good day, today I will tell you about my god complex and I want to explain it and chat with you. I see myself as higher in perception than most people, that is, among the people I know, this is because the people around me always look at life positively and try to enjoy life. Because to me, this life is empty and gray and dark, after all, it has an end and I don't understand why they sometimes take even such simple problems as a problem. We are grains of dust in the universe and I have accepted that life is pessimistic and that's why I get angry. I hope I can explain myself to other people. Anyway, let me continue, my main problem is 1 I started university 5 months ago, I literally feel like a god in high school, I was great, as if I was constantly under the influence of a drug, entertainment, everything, of course, this pessimism was eating me up, but I was enjoying it, I was social, but now I can't even talk. I have had an eye contact problem with people for many years, but my problem of not being able to talk has emerged. Now my voice is literally falling apart, I can't chat, I constantly feel like people are watching me and criticizing me, how can I get over my fear of meeting these people and making eye contact? Is there a name given to my general psychology?

[Dot_]

This isn't not to attack by any means, but I am curious to ask. Doesn't that God complex feel lonely? How do you find individuals to relate to if you seem to dismiss the concept of positivity and overall life enjoyment? Yes, life can be dark and unmoving. But that doesn't mean there aren't good things to look forward to and actually enjoy, whether that be chatting with a friend about a sport game or enjoying a holiday away.

You're welcome to message me if you don't feel comfortable responding here.

I just think that you're maybe struggling with something deeper and choosing to feel like a God by disregarding enjoyment for yourself and others, that sounds like pain. Although, this is just me speculating. So sorry if I've overstepped

[shaynokb in reply to Dot_]

Don't worry what I mean actually spending alone yes actually I'm not alone I have friends and I have a girlfriend but no one including my family really defines me. In fact, what kind of human well-being works intellectually alone? Talking or playing games with my friends gives me pleasure, but I feel like these things come to me, so I mean, I know that it is temporary and can you be used more than the result that there is something deeper?

[Dolphin14]

You are in your first year of college?

High school makes alot of people feel they are " big man on campus" It's an ego blow to have to start over again

Life is going to be like that. After college you will start a career as low man in the totem pole. You will have to work your way up and prove yourself.

Fortunately there are more people in college and you will find a level of comfort with some group.

🐬

[shaynokb in reply to Dolphin14]

Yes, it's my first year and what you said is somewhat true and it made me feel relieved. Actually, I don't have a problem with loneliness, it's just because of OCD that if I start badly, it will go bad, so it's a salvation, but thank you.

[Dolphin14 in reply to shaynokb]

Def the OCD will add to that. Have you made any close friends? Do you have a roommate?

[shaynokb in reply to Dolphin14]

I talk to a few people, but my shyness makes it difficult for me in my class and I try to dominate people.

[Dolphin14 in reply to shaynokb]

Interesting

How can you be shy and dominating at the same time

[Mohammad-341]

Did u consider urself god and now come of of that feeling. I cd not understand u