Loner

[sparkle314]

No point in getting sad anymore when I come back to my phone after 2 hours to see no notifications. Now I just laugh at how pathetic I am

[CazO46]

You sound like you are having a really hard time . Do you have people around to listen to you or is that one of the problems ? Take care

[sparkle314 in reply to CazO46]

I’m sorry I’m three weeks late but the answer to your question is yes and no, I know they’ll listen but I don’t want to burden them with it and plus it’s not like they care that much anyway. I complain about no one caring but I don’t let anyone care so it’s just my fault really

[CazO46 in reply to sparkle314]

Do you think not talking and feeling no one really cares is your way of protecting yourself to survive? I think when we open up we make ourselves vulnerable but everyone is the same. Life is full of vulnerability and insecurity and it seems some people find this easier to cope with than others. A while ago I was worried about being a burden to my friends and family and they would get fed up with me being unwell and crying. They reminded me that if it was the other way round I would not abandon them , I would always love and support them and they are right. If you feel you can take the risk then you could tell them you worry about feeling like a burden and hopefully they can reassure you. You always have people here who will listen so offload anytime you think it will help. Take care sparkle314 xx

[gerg]

I was not aware that notifications, on this site, worked as a pathetic meter. I would think that a high number of notifications would indicate highly pathetic. It is a support site after all.

The lesson here is that your perception will become your reality. If you want to be pathetic, just say that you are pathetic. Once you set your mind to it, my notification will change nothing.

Giving away your control is never going to result in any good. I have had to learn about mind reading and forecasting to get back my control. I now control me and only me. Since I don’t control others there is no reason to think that they control me.

So please take back control and don’t put the burden on others to make up a story about how you feel if they don’t do or say exactly what you want them to.

I doubt that you are pathetic or anything of the kind.

[sparkle314 in reply to gerg]

You’re completely 1000% right, what I meant by notifications was like text messages from family or snapchats or just something that’s not a reminder I set on my phone 300 days ago lol but I know exactly what you mean and thank you for replying