Over done!

I did this thing today that I always seem to do...

When i can feel that heavy feeling of dread coming on... (depression) ... I start to overdo everything! All happy happy laaaa di daaaa ... big smiles ... cute best clothes.. pile on the make up... keep smiling... hey lets go here lets go there! lets do this and that all day... keep making jokes make everyone laugh!

Cooked three big dishes (theres only 2 of us) ...

Just TOO MUCH.... and now i cleaned the whole world with Flash lemon.... 🍋! ... I’ve sat down in bed and booooooom its hit me like a bus!

I wanna cry and hide

But nothing has happened...

Just wanna hide away! ...

(Just wanted to let that out really)

Thanks for reading my rambling... sorry x

[hurtingheart1]

I'm sorry you're dealing with this!! but good for you to keep trying and doing your best!! but don't push yourself to hard if you can't just to fake it or please others be real and gentle w/ yourself even when others aren't - I know this is not easy can b super hard at times but try it! Try not to be soo hard on yourself and know you are not alone! life can be super tough as it is with out depression/ anxiety but it can be beautiful to we have to just try to appreciate those moments as best we can when they do come just soak them in &try to hold on to them for the tougher times to help get through them!! I'm trying to figure out a lot myself soo many people are! it all seems to be such a learning journey!! Guess we just have to keep reaching out, keep searching looking to find the gold, the good & the jems out there that can help us heal & grow!! And it's ok if you need a break sometimes let yourself rest and heal!!🌸☺️ this is a great place to connect to others who may understand and care!!

[Hidden in reply to hurtingheart1]

Thank you xx yeah I think its comes from never wanting to go back to how I was when i was severely depressed. I just start panicking like right get dressed ! Look amazing! Don’t go anywhere near that bed! Keep moving! You know?

I like to keep hope too (hence the name) I believe together with all this support we can be okay xx even being sad or however we feel as long as there’s others who understand.. we will be okay and not alone x

I hope the best for your and everyone else’s journey x

[hurtingheart1 in reply to Hidden]

Yes I get that!☺️😊Thank you so much& I really Hope the best to you as well & whenever you want to connect feel free to chat on hear I try check in throughout day when I can!!🌺

[Hidden in reply to hurtingheart1]

Same to you too x I check as much as i can also

[Blue-eyed-bee]

haha, no need to apologize

[Hidden in reply to Blue-eyed-bee]

Lool 🙄 needed a good ramble!

[Smd22]

Have you ever been diagnosed with depression? What you described kind of sounds manic.

[Hidden in reply to Smd22]

Yeah I have.. its just me trying to stay busy and fake happiness so I don’t fall ...

Its spread over 12-14 hours in a day usually lol but just looks manic in a paragraph all together.

[Smd22]

Are you on antidepressants?

[Hidden in reply to Smd22]

No

[Smd22]

Are you against this type of treatment? If not, I strongly suggest seeing a doctor. If yes, there are herbal alternatives,

[Hidden in reply to Smd22]

No I’m not against it. I have had therapy and learnt ways to deal with without medications. I have a lung condition also and have soooo many medications with that too.. so I just decided to go through with just therapy and thankfully for me it was the right choice as I am A LOT better than I used to be . I am able to live a ‘normal’ life now.. yes i have off days but that is okay as long as I know when to go get professional help. Thank you so much for your replies and advice. Take care x

[Smd22]

Well it sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders and I have no doubt that you will be fine. Take care of yourself.

[Hidden in reply to Smd22]

Thank you x I wish the best for you x