over it

[augustine02]

my anxiety is terrible. i feel like i’m living in hell dealing with this. sometimes i’m totally okay & then i ask myself why i’m not worrying. i hate this so much. i’m so scared of my anxiety. i go to therapy. i’m on medication. i feel like it’s not working or it’s just taking a while to work, or it only works sometimes. i don’t know. i feel frustrated with myself because i know myself & i know i’m not a bad person, but my intrusive thoughts make me feel terrible & i just wanna lay in bed and hide. i’m a fighter, but i’m exhausted. i’m sick of waking up and being scared.

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can I ask what have you tried med wise for the anxiety

[augustine02 in reply to Hidden]

buspar, prozac, celexa, wellbutrin, & zoloft. all in the last 6 years. i’m currently on buspar & prozac.

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How much buspar

[augustine02 in reply to Hidden]

5mg

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I tried 5 mg for 5 years not doing crap., after trying other things for years. Had an extremely rough 2022 and had to ask my physcatrist to just go to 10 mg. Didn’t help. Went to 30 and now 60 mg a day. Knocked 90% of my horrific symptoms down. Severely under medication can be a common theme. So many docs are passive. I went to a hospital out of desperation. Saved my life .

They were definetly not passive

Talk with your doc maybe. If your hurtin bad couldn’t hurt to discuss. It’s such a complicated world mental health meds

Much love

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BTW. Im 6’3” 280 pounds

[AuroraDisney]

hi, I just made my profile on here today cause I’m going through such a similar thing. Like I’m laying in bed and hiding right now. So you’re not alone. And your post made me feel a little better about not being alone.

[MediterraneanSea]

Hey augustine, I’m sorry you’re struggling 😕. Since medication has been mostly covered (propranolol helped me a lot with symptoms of anxiety, I’d recommend) I wanted to offer some therapy ideas. Cognitive behavioral therapy is standard so I’m sure you’ve done that. That’s helpful with identifying negative thought patterns which is essentially where anxiety originally came from. Exposure therapy is good for specific phobias or if you know what it is that’s causing your anxiety. EMDR is incredible for any traumatic event (s) you may have experienced. I just wanted to share some ideas in case that’s helpful. I’d also recommend journaling with intent to change intrusive thoughts and meditation, specifically “mental noting”.

I have bad social anxiety, but it was much worse before and I’ve found that over time I’ve become more tolerant to the feeling. As I do things that used to make me anxious, I become less and less disturbed, and there are even things I can do now without a second thought. I guess I wanted to share that I am so tired of working toward healing constantly too, but I do feel hope and have seen the work I put in pay off. It feels small in week or sometimes even month intervals, but over 10 years I’ve improved drastically. I hope my story brings you some hope too 😊

[augustine02 in reply to MediterraneanSea]

thank you so much. ❤️❤️❤️