Im new here. I hope I do this right...
My therapist thinks I have schizophrenia, which causes delusions and paranoia (along with audio/visual hallucinations...)
But this is my first time writing because of what I think is anxiety. My boyfriend left because I obsessed over him looking at porn, and I completely convinced myself he preferred it over me and that anytime I would try and be sexy for him I was just humiliating myself. I tried to provide it for him (sending him links/pics/and speaking positively), but that didnt work. He said I was being self destructive because I hate porn so much. He left because he said he needed someone who could accept all of his love without questioning him constantly.
Does anyone here deal with anything similar? You hate something your partner loves, but you want them to be happy, and you obsess? You convince yourself you arent enough for your partner, even though they say you are? Any little piece of "evidence" I would cling to and blow out of proportion, and constantly question him... I feel like an absolute monster. I dont know how to deal with this. Im so tired.