I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired

[Beautiful_Chaos]

My depression has been really bad today. I've been sad all day. And just a few minutes ago, I had a flash of my own funeral in my head. I'm not suicidal. I think it's just fear, due to all I've been through. I want to be happy again. Depression is robbing me of my happiness.

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I'm so sorry to hear you feel this way! That's what depression does, takes away the happy! Yet our minds are very Powerful! Try to take 5 minutes & think of something that makes you or made you happy in the past, maybe that will help a little, at least I wish for your sake it does! I'd be very happy to be your friend!

Sending joy your way! XXX

[HearYou]

Ok, do you want to talk about what you've been through. You posted a suicide post recently.

[Beautiful_Chaos in reply to HearYou]

I've just been dealing with depression a lot. It's taking a major toll on me, and I don't feel as if I'll ever overcome it.

[HearYou in reply to Beautiful_Chaos]

What are you doing now to deal with it?

[Beautiful_Chaos in reply to HearYou]

I'm on meds. I also suffer from Bipolar 2 Disorder. I will also be seeing a therapist and psychiatrist this coming Thursday.

[HearYou in reply to Beautiful_Chaos]

Hopefully you have discussed this with them. In the meanwhile, read through some of the posts and replies you find on this venue and see what other people in your situation have ask about and the answers they received I have deep depression when I wake and it doesn't clear until afternoon. Then anxiety will try to slip in. I know my mornings will not be productive so I read. I have adjusted to the afternoons being better and use that time to run errands and such. Insomnia affects many people so I don't fight it and I usually open my laptop then to this venue and spend several hours reading the posts and replies and learn from them. If I think I might have something to offer, I sometimes reply.

You are fortunate to have both a doctor and a therapist. Many do not.

Well I rather just told you how I'm dealing with depression ow, and its flip side of anxiety and insomnia. Hope that reassures you it is manageable xx

[jkl5500]

Depression tends to "filter out" all the happy and joyful thoughts and feelings that you would normally have, and all you're left with is the crap. I thought about death a lot in my last bout of depression.

I'm here to tell you not to take those negative thoughts and feelings at face value. They are only symptoms of an illness. The instrument that you use to perceive the world - your brain - is out of balance chemically right now, and you're getting faulty "readings".

Don't take all the negative stuff to heart. I've been where you are now at least seven times in my life. You have a husband and children who dearly love you and need you. That's the happy reality that you should focus on.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

[c-l-g]

It has helped my acute depression & anxiety to be in each moment, minute, hour; and bring myself to focus on just being fully in the moment. Helps the screaming mind battle of depressive thoughts(usually self abusive) and the racing busy busy busy anxiety that will Not shut up!

Focus on my blessings in the moment...blue sky? food to eat...grateful for those who know me and love me...shelter, the rich coffee I am enjoying...etc...

I will be praying for you to be filled with comfort and a sense of how treasured you are,

because of Who you are, not on your perception of what you do/or don't do.

Feel free to contact me if you just feel the need to talk and be heard.

[gilip in reply to c-l-g]

That’s a great answer and I try to practice enjoying the moment and staying in the day not worrying about tomorrow x x