Why is it that I feel like my brain processes things so differently from so many people? I am constantly over thinking the simplest things, and have a tendency to take things as a personal attack. This has always been a stressor in my relationship with my significant other. Most of the time I’ll blurt out a sarcastic response to things that make me nervous or anxious which causes problems, the vast majority of the time I catch these inappropriate remarks as soon as they leave my mouth and self correct. The damage has been done though. Then he will get mad and I’ll start being self deprecating, which makes him more angry and there is this uncomfortable wedge between us. He often asks me why I have to try and be happy, why I have to get so uncomfortable on social situations, and why do I think so differently from EVERY other person he knows. Just wish I could let him inside my head to see that I am trying, and I don’t like to think and feel the way I do. I don’t enjoy the social anxiety, or my brain being different and not happy, or over analyzing everything. It’s not like I am not seeking professional help, I am. I want to be happy, who wouldn’t want to be happy. Why can’t people see that I want to be happy, I don’t like being like this. Sorry I’m pretty sure I’ve repeated myself a lot, just needed to vent because I’m hurt, and feel so alone.