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I used to have this friend that I’ve known since kindergarten. A few months ago I told her I didn’t want to be friends with anyone anymore. I basically confessed to her about my depression. After saying she would help me, I continued being friends until I realized that she was getting on with her life. She never stopped to help or talked to me once besides over messaging, or apologized unless it was over the phone. I started avoiding her and stuff.

Whenever I looked at her, I felt kinda guilty since she had a bad childhood too and might also have depression.

Recently, I also found and read my old diary from elementary school. I realized she stopped giving any effort towards our friendship since 3rd or 4th grade.

She had almost always been the one to hurt me: emotionally (telling me I’m annoying/clingy or telling me to go away as I ruin everything during a game of ball) and physically (pinching my arms until I screamed or hitting me when I angered her).

She had said that she’s changed (since last year), and maybe she is, but she’s hurt me so much that I just can’t bear to be around her. Being around her makes me feel bad about myself and brings up bad memories.

Yet at the same time, I feel guilty for avoiding her and hopes she will have better friends.

Do you have any advice?

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We all have friends in our life that we occasionally have to unload for various reasons. If after having a good think about it you decide this friend isn't worth it then you have to let go of her. The easiest way for you to do it is gradually, don't be available or call her or anything and hopefully she will get the message. Don't feel guilty as she isn't your responsibility and sometimes you have to put your own feelings first. x

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