Time to give up?

[Givingup]

I was feeling suicidal earlier and was going to check myself into a hospital. I took a calmer and felt somewhat better. One of my children isn't talking to me and doesn't understand my despair.

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I promise you I'm here for you! Until someone walks in your shoes they have no idea what it's like! Love for you!XXX

[erin_c]

Please don't give up. Many people don't understand but here in this community we do. Sending prayers for new hope each morning and the strength to get through your days.

[HearYou]

Sometimes I think there are different types of depression, and unless one has experienced yours, understanding it may be impossible. My husband doesn't understand my depression, but he says he has learned to accept it. Perhaps that will be the acceptance your child will have one day. In the meanwhile, what can I do for you? Was there something today or in the last few days that pushed on you that you didn't want to live? You and I have not talked before, so maybe we can share a few things. Sharing a few new things with a new friend sometimes helps. It is about 9:30 p.m. EST here, and I take my night meds at 10 p.m. So if you still have 30 minutes or so, we can chat on line or by PM, if you like.

[Givingup in reply to HearYou]

Thank you for replying... I've been through a lot in my life including a bitter divorce. Two close family members died within the past year. So I've been dealing with depression for a long time. My only two daughters got married and moved away and had babies. We were always super close and now one is not talking to me. I don't like her husband much... It was lonely even when we were on good terms.

[HearYou in reply to Givingup]

Ok, the bitter divorce I can say been there, done that. Lost my mom and later my dad in my arms, But was not blessed with children. And can tell you miss them very much....but the one who doesn't understand your distress also has a bummer for a husband, You really, really miss her, don't you?

[HearYou in reply to HearYou]

You there?

[HearYou in reply to HearYou]

Please answer me or newhope. Let us know you are ok at the moment.

[Givingup in reply to HearYou]

I'm here. Didn't see the other messages. I'm basically ok now. Ok as can be... Thank you for caring.

[newhope]

Please message me or post the moment you are feeling this way! We are here for you!! I can relate to this feeling all too well and this is such a safe space. It is better to let it out here rather than live in your head and battle internally. The last time I did that, I scared my sister half to death and she started crying and screaming to my parents at midnight saying that I was acting strange and she was worried that I was trying to end my life. It’s scary - being alone - and to do that to a loved one. I still regret it. We are here for you. ❤️

[Givingup in reply to newhope]

Thank you, good night.

[HearYou]

Ok, good night. Please remember that there is always some somewhere in the world awake and reading and responding to posts. Always. If you are in the US, East Australia is about 14 hours ahead of our east coast. So always some up starting their day and reading you if you need to talk in the middle of the night. Nite.xx

[Givingup in reply to HearYou]

Thanks, good night.

[HearYou]

Goodmorning. Just wanted to see if your night went ok, and to check on you today? Need to talk?

[Givingup in reply to HearYou]

Hi, that's so sweet... Not in a talking mode. But I will contact you if need be. Have an excellent day and thank you!