I want to give up.

[ckw1]

This week has been one of the hardest I’ve had in a long time. My anxiety has been relentless and I thought I had been at least keeping it somewhat under control. But last night I went to bed and I was exhausted and I needed sleep bad. After being asleep for a few hours I was awake and couldn’t get back to sleep. 2:30 in the morning and I’m tired but I can’t sleep. The lack of sleep is making my mind foggy and I can’t think clearly. It seems like every muscle in my body has been tensed up for hours and everything hurts. I have nausea and a pounding headache and it just the beginning of the day. I don’t want to do this anymore, I don’t want to hurt anymore.

[Kg00]

Take a deep breath, you can do this. It's just a bad day and it will pass. Take time to exercise and meditate today

[ckw1 in reply to Kg00]

Thank you for your support. I know that this is just a bad day but the lack of sleep is making everything seem so much worse than it really is. I’m trying to stay calm and I have been staying committed to exercising. It’s the only time I feel somewhat better. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I just want a sign that everything is going to be okay, just a little hope to hold onto because I feel like I’m drowning right now.

[Forestina in reply to ckw1]

I always look to nature at this time of year. The trees are bare and the weather bleak, but look closely the shoots of hope and new life are there, it is just that we can't always notice them, but they are there.

[ckw1 in reply to Forestina]

I will keep looking for signs of better things to come. I just don’t feel like the future has much to offer me right now. What’s the point of trying.

[Samson1953 in reply to ckw1]

Dont give up. Look up at the beatiful sky n smile. If u can get a hold of spme Peppermint oil n smell it. it will relax u n give pisitive energy. Think of a super good memory. it will get u thru. 😎

[ckw1 in reply to Samson1953]

Thank you. I’m trying to stay focused on the positive things in my life but my tired brain keeps dragging me back into the negative thoughts. I sometimes just don’t have the energy to battle it anymore.

[Samson1953 in reply to ckw1]

Well I do remember Joel Olsteen mentioning about negative thoughts that as soon as one comes into your head immediately replace it with a good one so I'll always have good thoughts written down or in the back of your mind so that you can replace them with any negative ones. also maybe you can go volunteer somewhere and you'll see the good that you're doing and it always makes one feel better

[tashalyn]

Am going through a bad phase too, but I certainly try to make sure I get sufficient sleep, it’s actually what makes me survive..try tonight to get some sleep binge on warm milk and bananas

[ckw1 in reply to tashalyn]

Hmmmm. Good idea I might have to try that.

Hopefully things start looking up for you soon.

[xobrandy211xo]

Sending good vibes and positive thoughts your way 💙

[ckw1 in reply to xobrandy211xo]

Thank you

[Lostjoy]

Hi, I’m having it pretty bad today also. My mind is so tired of the constant bad thoughts like you said. I’ll have an ok day, then a bad day. I can’t seem to keep the ok days coming. I’m feeling like you today. I just want to give up.

I keep believing it will get better because it just has to don’t it?

[ckw1 in reply to Lostjoy]

Yeah I am hoping that it will get better soon. I’ve been here before and I know how this cycle works but it still doesn’t seem possible that it will get better when you’re stuck feeling like this. I hate it.

[Ames09 in reply to Lostjoy]

I feel the same way. My thought's are relentless && I have picked up a CBT book to try and help change my thought's around. I don't know how much this could possibly help but I am in such a dire situation I will do anything whatsoever.

[Lostjoy in reply to Ames09]

I have tried books. Maybe I need to try again. I feel so hopeless. I wish we could start a chat line to help each other. I feel so alone in this.

[ckw1 in reply to Lostjoy]

From what I’ve read it is possibly to change but I must be doing something wrong because every time I think I’m getting better something happens to knock me down. I end up stumbling and spend days sometimes weeks trying to get back to where I was.

[ciley]

you are not alone, i have felt a lot of changes in my ability to hang on to hope,i do think the winter weather is not helping, i also wake in the night and go over the last appalling 4 years in my mind,i may have to take something for sleep,it does not always work, or you fall asleep later on and wake up later, i am not working to a strict deadline just as well.i have taken to drinking a little more,as i am a small drinker i now might have a third of a bottle wine,and this is helping a bit for now, i too feel desparate as i feel i no longer 'know myself' i have had to make huge adjustments because i made a mistake,a huge mistake......