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Do you ever just want to disappear?

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I wanted to. My mind is taking all over me. Makes me think of things that messes me so much. If only i could have amnesia of certain events. I wanna forget. 😔😭

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Luna505

Maybe trying to push certain events away isn't the solution. Maybe learning to acknowledge them and accepting that they happened regardless of how they made you feel is the right thing to try. Maybe you should try to accept them and realize that ultimately, you have control over your life, not them. Acknowledge them but don't give them power, then maybe you can move forward from there ❤

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Luna505 in reply toLuna505

Easier said then done, I know. But I hope I helped in a way.

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CactusDan in reply toLuna505

I know. I’m trying my best. Specially in accepting them. It was just a difficult thing to do. :( I was so used to things that I have before, and now they’re gone. It’s kinda they also took myself from me. :(

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Luna505 in reply toCactusDan

I know. I've experienced a similar situation. Whenever I recall certain events, I do my best to distract myself. With reading, television, music, passions, hobbies. It helps you forget and If you do that often, with time, the events won't be the same. You'll see that you'll be able to move on regardless. Stay optimistic ❤

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CactusDan in reply toLuna505

Im trying. Yet my mind is so multi functional. Even in doing my favorite stuffs the things that bothers me are still there. They keep on going and going. Thinking about them. What should i do about them. What should i dont. And it sucks. :(

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Luna505 in reply toCactusDan

Have you tried looking into meditation? I find it difficult to do it sometimes but when I can, I feel invigorated afterwards. The purpose of it is to clear your mind. To think of nothing. To calm your emotions. Maybe look up some videos. Give it an actual try ❤

I personally find this girl's voice so relaxing:

youtu.be/fCJLesBAspc

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CactusDan in reply toLuna505

I tried once. I got bored. Huhuhu. But thank you so much. I’ll look into that. And i’ll try again.

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Luna505 in reply toCactusDan

Lol sometimes boring is better than being anxious. Good luck!

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CactusDan in reply toLuna505

Yup. You’re right about that. Thanks!

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I have Bipolar Depression and Anxiety along with PTSD, and I got the racing thoughts that never end literally I dream of the problems n makes it start asa I open my eyes. But even with coloring or music don't stop. I try to journal but I can't wright as fast as my thoughts go.

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Hi ash. I’m sorry you need to feel such things as that. As with the things you’ve tried, you have more options. :)) You can try doing exercises in the morning so you can stop overthinking. As you wake up, think about “oww what a good day to jog or go to gym or have some yoga” like that. Before sleeping, please make it a habit to pray. Pray to have a good sleep, and to not dream of such things that messes you out. While you can’t sleep, i want you to think of good things. Things that happened in your past that is really funny, something that will make you smile. Actually, you can always do this everytime you feel alone, or sad. But it is really good at night to avoid nightmares. Those things helped me a lot tho. And i hope it will also help you. I also felt before like nothing is helping me, but when i started appreciating my family and friends, hanging out with them, little by little things are getting okay.. Do not be afraid to ask some time from your fam and friends. They can help you heal and forget painful memories by creating new happy and wonderful memories. :) Feel free to message me if you need anything. Do not worry, you’ll get through these things. I believe in you. :)

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Thanks so much, and I'm definitely going to start trying to make some of your suggestions a habit. But alot of my bad thoughts stem from my family and child hood. Unfortunately I really don't have any funny memories. But I am finding this site very useful and helpful it was a nice feeling seen people respond to me. Already I feel like I may not be alone anymore. Thanks for everything and I hope we can continue to work through things together.

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I’m sorry to hear about you not having any funny memories. :( but i hope you can create a new one with your children. Always make them the center of your happiness. And if something that you watch on social media, tv or youtube that can make you smile please do so. :)) you are not alone. Everyone here is willing to help you. Do not be afraid. You’ll get through this. :))

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Thanks Cactus Dan. 😁 That's the only thing that makes me happy and keep trying to not give up is my babies. Just a hug from them makes me feel better. But I'm definitely glad I joined here because it is giving me the adult conversation I've been needing. 😁 Thanks for your help and support. I hope that I can be supportive to those on here and you as well.

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You will be. :)) you can teach them the lessons you’ve learned and more so. If you need someone to talk to, i am here. Do not hesitate to ask for it. Fighting! God bless. :)

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Starrlight

So sorry CactusDan. I know; I wish certain thought patterns and events recalled would cease to be and sometimes I wish I was gone too. Trying to not give the negative voices the power. Trying calming with things like deep breathing, music, whatever works. Trying to keep good memories and make more beautiful moments by how I perceive, being as grateful as I can about the life I am living. It’s hard sometimes and I get feeling bad when I can’t seem to get to a good place. Not giving up though. You are strong. Don’t give up. Do more of the things that bring a bit of light and hope. See what gives you motivation. I forced myself to sit in the sun today. I think I will force myself to do s sketch. Sometimes it’s little things that can carry us to the bigger things that we need.

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CactusDan in reply toStarrlight

Thank you starrlight. Im glad you’re doing just fine and trying things for your good. I hope i’ll find that something that somehow will bring light and hope to me and see those little things.

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Starrlight in reply toCactusDan

Actually only some of the time I am feeling fine; it’s a fight with the mind.the things that bother like taunting are still there with the sunshine but I hope you and I both will get to a point where the sun outshines what is bothering.

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CactusDan in reply toStarrlight

Ow yes. I do hope also. Cant wait for that day we will be both okay.. I just want to feel normal again. To live my happy life just like what i used to have before. :(

Have you told God all this?..

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Yes i did. I always do. :(

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Great..stop worrying then..this is all part of his plan for you..have faith..

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Thank you.. i’ll keep that in mind..

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ohheyitsstacy

We do care, everyone here cares and sometimes not knowing how we feel is life's way of letting us restart and allow ourselves to find ourselves. Accept what has happened but learn the lessons from it and be above those events. Rise above them and prove to yourself that YOU CAN DO IT <3

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CactusDan in reply toohheyitsstacy

Thank you so much stacy. Good thing is even we are all in the same thing, we still know how to appreciate each other.. acceptance is the key. Im trying to learn it little by little. I was just being used to these things that is why it’s kinda hard dealing the world without them..

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ohheyitsstacy

Yes acceptance is definitely they key, and accepting where you are right now and being okay with that. Because at the end of the day, only you will understand yourself better than everyone else. And also, any time we are separated from something we are used to, it feels unsettling and unsafe, but it is also a chance to rebuild your self identity and core confidence. I know you can and get through this, feel free to message me if you want a chat. Take care

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CactusDan in reply toohheyitsstacy

Yeah.. i do feel unsettling and unsafe. Feels like i’m not gonna make it without them. :( thank you so much stacy.

Yes , n yes. So me... Has anything helped you. I'm getting scared because I'm getting deeper into the depression n isolation I don't know what to do

I feel this way often.

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