I ended up quitting my job that very first day. the symptoms were too great for me to handle but I made it through almost half a day. I was, and still am, extremely discouraged with myself but I will continue trying to find a job that will be better suited for me and my situation..
I've been pushing myself to attend routine appointments for various minor things which normally my anxiety and symptoms would cause me to cancel on. Ever since being diagnosed with anxiety, I can't remember the last time I attended an appointment without my heart racing at least 130 BPM. Yesterday at a chiropractic appointment I realized that my heart rate was beating NORMALLY. I was beyond blessed and happy in that moment.. Sure my constant lightheadedness was there, but it was much less with how calm I was remaining.
I've pushed myself to find a licensed clinical social who focuses on anxiety, depression, ptsd, and other issues that relate to me. She practices hypnotherapy and uses EMDR for healing purposes along with CBT. My first appointment is tomorrow at noon. I am very nervous because I feel as if I cannot heal myself from these constant symptoms, so I have to give therapy a try. This is a therapists area of expertise so hopefully she will be able to help me.. I feel so helpless.
Also, I went into a store yesterday! It was only for a few minutes, but I still went in and did not fall over despite my symptoms. I've been trying to push myself harder each day despite how I feel with my anxiety and depression.
I pray things will get easier for me and everyone else on here suffering from these invisible mental illnesses.
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Weekend update...June edition
Therapist Update
Little positive update
Psychiatrist (update and question)
Update on marriage depression and anxiety
