Hoping it gets better

[tylerjjjj]

Today is another hard day. My mom recommended that I seek counseling since my anger and grief is only getting worse. I always feel like i'm getting the short hand of the stick. I get mad and frustrated so fast. Looking at old pictures, I see how happy I used to be and it makes me even more sad. I'm hoping that this counseling helps and relieves some of this pressure on my heart and my brain.

[mo9012]

Counseling is a life saver. It’s going to get better, I promise you. If you can afford a specialist in anger/grief that’s a good idea, if not, generic counseling has saved me on more than one occasion as well. You will be happy again. You will feel hope again. Just gotta fight.

[tylerjjjj in reply to mo9012]

Thank you. I appreciate it.

[Justswimming]

Oh it will give you a safe space to reflect on your feelings...you have to get them out and then make a plan on things you could do to ease those feelings ..trust me just doing something like talking to a counselor or a therapist will give you some relief.. Hang in there....emotions are natural...take care of yourself.. Let me know how you feel after counselor meeting. Wishing you the best.

[tylerjjjj in reply to Justswimming]

I'll definitely give you an update. I think my first appointment is Tuesday.

[Justswimming]

That's very inappropriate.. Find another therapist.. They are like hairdressers.. Sometime it takes 2 or 3,to find the rt fit

[Justswimming]

Great!

[elodieanne]

Looking through old photos is something I've always liked to do. When I'm struggling with anxiety/depression though, I try to avoid it. I know that reminiscing on "better" times won't bring them back, so I wait until I'm in a better place to look back.

[tylerjjjj in reply to elodieanne]

yeah. i used to love taking pictures and videos and then looking back on them. Im a memory hoarder. Now i wish i could just delete all these memories so I wont hurt as much. Like almost every thought i have reflects back to my grandma......its been 7 months. like whats wrong with me?

[elodieanne in reply to tylerjjjj]

There's definitely nothing wrong with missing someone you love! When you're struggling with anxiety or depression though, it can be hard to handle grief without feeling overwhelmed by it. This might be something worth bringing up to your counselor. Best of luck!