I’m not really as depressed anymore as I am anxious. I’m going to see a psychiatrist and I’m so nervous. There are any number of things he could potentially diagnose me with. I’m thinking ADD, an eating disorder, clinical depression, I mean I really don’t think it’s gonna be good news.
I started off on fire a couple of weeks ago wanting to do all these things like getting my driver license as well as the GED and still am trying so hard to get them done, but it’s taking so long and am just getting frustrated with the process and that frustration is starting to boil over.
My dad told me I’m frustrated because I want to be. Why would I wanna be? I don’t. The dude doesn’t listen. I can’t talk to him about anything. He is terrible at giving advice. He thinks getting my GED is gonna be easy. I’m struggling mightily with basic stuff HOW IS IT GONNA BE EASY? TELL ME. It’s not.
I don’t know how I’m gonna survive in college if I can even get to that point.