Hi my name is Alina,
Talking about anxiety and depression, I have it on and off. It’s alright with me and it happens, I just like relating to people on the topic. Makes it easier to move through out the day. So share stories and I’ll share mine ..☹️😐😬🤨🙃🙂
My story I feel is fairly basic... started struggling in high school, and progressively got worse. My parents divorced when I was 11 and my father was abusive and narcissistic. I lived with him for a little while in high school but then I had my first real spiral. I moved in with my grandma as a safer place to live but when she was out of town I tried to kill myself in 2013 during the Summer, and again in December when she was home and took me to the hospital. I feel like a burden to all those around me because I know my problems are huge. Today I’m suicidal and want to cut, but I haven’t. And it’s terrifying to say I don’t know how I will feel tomorrow.
Do you think you are feeling suicidal because of your past? Or something else? I’m here for you and I can relate. Think of what you’re going through as just an experience. It’s not who you are. I’m one of the people in this world that cares about others emotions. Don’t want you to feel like you’re trapped, it’s just a phase. Do you listen to incubus at all?
I do think it’s because of my past. I don’t want to die I just want to die. I know that doesn’t make sense ha but it’s the best explanation for how I feel right now. I don’t think I’ve ever heard incubus.
Yeah I know how you feel haha, I get like that but not so much anymore, thank god. Yeah incubus there’s a song on there called just a phase lol it came to mind when I said that. They got more popular music. Interesting style of music so it just depends on your taste. I go all over the place with music though.
Do you watch ted talks? They really help me out sometimes. I like to analyze my mind and see why I’m feeling the way I am and how I can change it. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t.
I love analyzing. I’m a sociology major so I’m really into looking at how experiences affect people’s emotions. It’s really helps me understand my illness and why I am the way I am.
I like that, and good. It’s cool to see that people are taking better care of themselves and what not.
My analyzing can get annoying just because I tend to over think. Has it’s perks and downfalls.
Hi AlinaLorence,
For me having anxiety is new. I've been dealing with it for about 7-8 months now. It came because I went through a lot of change all at one time and I had no one really supporting me. I thought about suicide at one point, but it was just a thought, I wasn't going to act on it. That's when I knew I was a little depressed too. Things are better for me now, it was rough in the beginning. I have my good and bad days. Lately, I have been OK but these days don't typically last too long before something make my anxiety kick in.
Hey nessi,
I almost feel like I’ve had depression for my whole life and along comes anxiety. There was things that happened in my past just because of unfortunate events. My dad and mom weren’t always there and so I wasn’t really being guided or watched which led to other things at a young age. I felt alone for a long ass time.
Idk I’ve come to my truth and how I felt about the whole situation. Looking back on it, seems like I called out to the universe and it brought me what I needed. Seems religious but it was my spirituality meaning who I really was as a person. It has kept me grounded more than I could ever do by myself.
Big changes for me are usually over whelming but exciting, are you not the spontaneous type? Just curious
Nobody knows 
Really sad
Nobody Knows
What/who keeps you going??
Feeling really out of it
