An update on the saddest, happy mom

[Momof2boyz]

So I've been seeing my boys every other day and in the happiest I've ever been when I'm with them. I tend to hit my really low points when I'm not with them though. At night I cry and cry I'm so sad to be away from them. But I find I'm getting through it. Sometimes the suicidal thoughts still cross my mind as an out to my pain. But I don't believe in them and I know I have so much to live for. Its just the overwhelming sadness trying to keep me down. I don't let it. I've been trying 110% to keep myself physically or mentally busy. I've been on zoloft now for 10 days so its building up in my system now and im hoping to start seeing a bigger difference soon. I have not had contact with my children's father and even though at times I feel week and I feel lonely im making it by. I went to court he didn't show. But im on a positive track to getting my boys home for good. And we can be finally happy. And safe. .. Also haven't started working yet. I've applied to quite a few places but nothing falling through yet. Going to continue to try my best to stay positive and going to continue to put in my absolute best effort. . this site has been so helpful not only because it allows me an outlet to my feelings and thoughts and also that i get support and good advice. I can connect with people on similar issues and also give advice where I feel I have good words to give. So please continue to interact and connect with me any time. You guys are my supports. Its only me. And my boys who are babies.. I need this support.

[gerg]

This trying time will serve you in some way. If everything were perfect we would never get stronger. The separation from the kids will make your future together more special and you will have joy in your life.

[gerg in reply to gerg]

I sound like a fortune cookie sometimes, but I mean what I say.

[Momof2boyz in reply to gerg]

I agree. Once I reach my goals and my children and I are in a better place I will finally start to feel a little better

[pink83737]

Everything will eventually work out try not to stress too much! I also take zoloft and it takes a bit to get into your system (well at least for me it did) also maybe try having something that reminds u of ur boys and keep it with you at night. Try calling them on the phone! Exercise helps also praying for you xoxo

[Momof2boyz in reply to pink83737]

I've been considering yoga but im currently lacking the motivation to get started. But I've really been wanting to. . And I can give that a try. But as for phone calls they are too little. Thank you for your prayers. Im trying to keep strong . the zoloft seems to be slow but promising. Im going to stick with it and hope more change and positivity will come my way.

[pink83737 in reply to Momof2boyz]

You gotta push yourself to do yoga! Yeah zoloft is very slow mine took like 3-4 months to actually see a difference

[Momof2boyz in reply to pink83737]

Im going to push myself to try. I think ill like it and believe it will make me feel refreshed. . hopefully when my medicine does kick in it will also make me feel better. I know I have to work towards it but the medicine is good to fall back on

[pink83737 in reply to Momof2boyz]

You will feel better soon! Hang in there, everything is temporary