Hi everybody i hope you are having a good day. Just to update that i got the job, it is just 10 hours at week, teaching english in a school and i will probably look for more hours in another place. Well that's the good thing.
The bad one is i can't stop feeling really sad in the mornings, i guess it is one of toughest parts of my day. Before i met my ex i felt like that every day, like really down, hopeless and didn't want to go to work cos my mood was not good. When he appeared everything changed and i started feeling more motivated, he made me feel way better than now and helped me to recover from my last depression. Now that he is gone i feel the same every morning, and obvs cos i am not moving to Ireland anymore as he and i planned to be together. Any advice to stop feeling in that way? cos honestly i want to cry so much when it is so early and need to leave my home. At least i am not starting my work very early in the mornings so i can calm down here at home before going to work.
best wishes xx