The bad the good and the sunny

[faulhallen]

So I started my new job today and I just went on lunch. Thought I’d just share a general update about life and the new job in case anyone might be wondering.

So I learned today that my ex will be starting her new role as a nurse on 10/29 😫😫😫

That’s a whole two weeks later than I had been under the impression it would be. I know 2 weeks may not sound like a long time but trust me when I say it will probably feel like an eternity. Add in the fact that we will have to arrange for child care 3 days a week for at least 2 weeks during the initial training (and for more random times after that) and that’s potentially another month I’m trapped in that house depending on who ends up paying and how much...

The new job is a little intimidating. It’s a lot of stuff to learn but at least I’m not expected to know all of it right away. I really want a job I can take pride in and I’m not sure that this will be it but you know what? I think this will be good.

It seem like I’ll stay busy. I like feeling productive because it keeps the depression at bay and makes the days go by faster. People here seem nice and down to earth and it’s not every day you get a chance to get your foot in the door with General Motors.

Mostly I’m going to enjoy the schedule and my window. My cubicle is next to a window and it’s easy to forget how much you enjoy seeing the sun when you’re working 6-7 days a week in a building with no windows on a shift that has you sleeping or at work all day.

I’m not 100% certain when I get off all week because my training schedule is different than my work schedule but I plan to enjoy being outside this week before my daughter gets home. I think it’ll be good for me 😃

[Dollie05]

Hi. I also suffer from GAD. I was diagnosed in 2012. I feel your pain starting a new job is intimadating, and it does'nt help when trying to cope with anxiety, and depression. You should feel good, and be proud of yourself you have a job and your making money to support your family. Congratulations on your new job. Try not to be so hard on yourself use positive self talk, and I know it's easy for me to say this to you because Im not You, but to me you sound like you have drive, and your a good Dad. Breakups suck (for lack of a better word). All that you are going through right now is only temporary it will. pass in time

[faulhallen in reply to Dollie05]

Thank you so much for your kind words🙂. I keep trying to remind myself it’s all temporary but I struggle sometimes. I’ve spent so long waiting for things that seem so far away it begins to feel like I’ll be waiting forever.

I don’t know how much drive I have (at least in terms of concrete goals or plans) but I’m trying to improve my situation where I can. I’m still far from the vague future goals I set for myself but my current concerns were seeing my kids and getting some semblance of life back and this will definitely do it.

[Agora1]

Thanks for the update faulhallen. I too, think working will help with your depression and confidence/self esteem. General Motors? I'm impressed Good Luck with your training. Believe in that a new start has already begun for you. Congratulations my friend.

[faulhallen in reply to Agora1]

Thank you 😊. I’m nervous and probably will be for a while because I’m on a 1 year contract from a staffing agency and can get hired, resigned as a contractor, or let go at the end. If I do get hired there should be lots of opportunities for growth especially if I’m willing to move to Detroit one day.

[Agora1 in reply to faulhallen]

Oh wow...sounds like a great opportunity. I have worked on contract with a temp agency. Do you believe I turned down an offer from United Airlines with benefits

Just wasn't my thing. However after 6 months with another company, I was offered full time not with flying benefits but health/dental. Was very happy with my choice.

Wish you success, one day at a time. It will happen for you.

[Stilltrying_]

HI there, enjoy the light Good to see your update, thanks

[faulhallen in reply to Stilltrying_]

I’m going to try and enjoy it! Thank you for reading and giving your support! I hope you have a great day😃

[gogogirl]

Congratulations, and for GM yet. I wish you the best, and it's great that you will be able to look out of a window.

[faulhallen in reply to gogogirl]

Sorry for the delay but thank you! 🙂

[pink318]

Hi Faulhallen,

Congratulations! I’m happy for you.

I pray that you will enjoy your new job and you will be successful. Thank you for sharing. Take care.

[faulhallen in reply to pink318]

Thank you so much! I hope everyone in this group finds a way to be happier!

[gogogirl in reply to faulhallen]

Are U an engineer?