Communication?

[ComingUpRoses]

I'm curious if anyone else has problems communicating with those in their life? The other day I had a talk with my boyfriend about something that's been bothering me for awhile, and I wound up shaking and crying because it was so hard for me to talk about it. It causes so much more stress and anxiety on top of what I feel everyday that I just struggle so badly to handle it. It always comes down to me crying and panicking.

It has increased his anxiety as well and I just feel like I shouldn't have even brought it up because I hate to be one to cause others emotional distress when it's so much easier for me to just keep swallowing it. Just wondering if others out there have such anxiety and distress over communicating issues they have. Please tell me I'm not alone..

[Sushi33]

Trying to communicate what I'm feeling and what is bothering me always seems harder when I'm trying to tell someone who doesn't have the same sort of anxiety and depression problems as me. And for that matter most of the time I have no idea what the problem even is or where the anxiety is coming from. So at least you tried to express your needs/concerns. That's a good thing even if you break down. Suppressing always seems to make things worse. My poor husband could attest to that. I'll be going along acting fine and then suddenly lose it out of no where because it builds. So try not to be hard on yourself for getting overwhelmed and crying. Sometimes I think maybe letting it out and crying is what we need. And maybe the more you try to talk about it the easier it will be.

[ComingUpRoses in reply to Sushi33]

Thank you for your kind words. The depression anchor is heavy today. I just want to stay in bed all day and pretend the world doesn't exist. Hopefully things will turn out ok.

[powrrlesspotato]

I honestly feel this on so many levels. I honestly want to just lock myself up inside and not tell anyone how I actually feel, like especially when I’m sad. My boyfriend tries to help me out, but I just feel kind of “awkward” for some reason...

[ComingUpRoses in reply to powrrlesspotato]

Yes this is me today. Just want to get in the car and disappear where no one will ever find me. I'm tired of feeling like I regret ever opening my mouth.

[powrrlesspotato in reply to ComingUpRoses]

I understand that completely. I honestly just want to stay in bed all day and sleep, because that’s where I regret the least.

[Sunshine2018 in reply to powrrlesspotato]

Amen, sister. This is so exactly how I feel. Especially the awkwardness. Like, "How do I do this???"

[Sunshine2018]

Story of my life, right here. I lose relationships this way, just bottling it up until I really just can't deal with that person. And when I do try to talk about it, I so often just end up thinking how crazy I sound or how I'm bothering the other person with my bullshit.

I completely agree with Sushi about the building. It can be incredibly difficult but it seems like we might actually have to speak up if we want to keep the relationships.