I'm 37 and I've been living with anxiety and depression my whole life. The past 9 months or so have been the best I've ever been. Just within the past couple of weeks though my anxiety has come back full force. I've been calling off work and haven't wanted to leave the house or do anything. I can't get in to see my therapist until Feb 1 so that makes me even more anxious. I hate feeling this way. I just wish I could disappear and not have to be a burden to anyone anymore. I don't really have any close friends or family to turn to for support. My boyfriend is great but he lives an hour away and isn't able to be here with me all the time. I like my job and don't want to lose it but I can't seem to make myself go. I don't know if it being winter has anything to do with it or not. I've always been depressed year round so I'm not sure if it gets worse in the winter or not. I've tried many different meds over the years and only the one I'm on now has really helped much. I've been on it for about 10 years. I'm so tired of fighting this battle. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I want to go back to being happy and not fearful and anxious every waking minute. I try to sleep it away but I know that doesn't really work. It's still there when I wake up. But the constant anxiety is so draining. All I want to do is sleep.