I am a firm believer that anxiety never really goes away. We deal with it and at times it comes back and appears to be stronger. I did really well over the month of December. Much better than in past years, but this month my symptoms appear to be etching back. I started taking my benzo, but it just makes me tired and I feel bad for needing the meds (I take only as needed and start at .25 mg). I guess the reason I am posting is that I feel sort of back in a cycle of anxiety and that it will never go away. I am not as bad as I have been and work has been stressful (when do I get the courage to leave?) Work is a very big trigger for all this and I need to make a change. Its also the same month that my medical physical is due and I guess I always worry about doctor's visits.