I read other people’s post and I don’t have it nearly as bad. I wasn’t abused by anyone, my husband is decent man. I do not lack for much. So then why do I get so depressed and anxious? It makes me feel worse. I’ve had depression my whole life and mental illness runs through my extended family. I remember being depressed as a kid and my parents didn’t understand and thought I was just ungrateful and now that’s how I feel about myself too. I just want to be normal like my siblings. Why did I get all the shitty genes?