Well hello depression..

[Elizabeth04]

Today it hit me. Literally like a ton of bricks.

I've had anxiety and panic attacks for over a year, but really no depression I wouldnt think. Well today it started off with my hiatal hernia bothering me, first thing in the morning. I had ate bad food the day before and it messed me up. Along with being on my period which always escalates everything (sorry tmi)

But I just started crying.. and crying.. I seriously didn't want to be here anymore. I have never ever ever thought about ending my life... but this morning I just kept thinking my family would be better off without me.

Man did that scare the crap out of me... I was like what in the heck are you thinking?! Why are you thinking like This? All I know is that is not like me AT ALL. I thought right then I need help... with everything... anxiety... life.... everything.

I went to my husband and literally held nothing back. I told him how I couldn't take feel g like this anymore and all the bad thoughts.

He said, you've got to accept that you need medication to get through this, you are getting worse.

He's right, I do. I'e been to the doctor so much and they all try to help me and they always prescribe me something to try to help me but I never listen. I need to get better.

I messaged my doctor and told her I want to try Celexa again. Well really I want to try celexa... bc I really never tried it long enough. I'm gonna just take it and not think about it. I have to. I' getting worse and I know it.. My kids need me, my husband needs me and I need me to get better and to heal.

Here we go

[ComingUpRoses]

Hey, I'm glad to hear you've reached out for help! Going to your husband was a big step, and then messaging your doctor was a huge step as well. It certainly sounds like you're taking steps in the right direction to get help with everything that's bothering you. And for everything in between, we all will be here to listen and support the best we can.

[Elizabeth04 in reply to ComingUpRoses]

Thank you. I was really kind of emarrased and ashamed to tell my husband at first. But he was so supportive and that really helped me. I really hope everything goes smoothly

[ComingUpRoses in reply to Elizabeth04]

I completely understand. That embarrassment and shame is so good at keeping us stuck in our terrifying worlds of pain. I know the courage it took for you to reach out. I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

[Vonnah in reply to Elizabeth04]

That's really sweet. That means he really is there for you no matter what💖

[Agora1]

Elizabeth04 Good for you...We all need that little extra help at times. This is one of those times for you. You need to get better for yourself so that you can take care of your husband and your children. I wish you good luck on Celexa. Be patient, I think you will be pleasantly surprised at the difference it makes. xx

[Survivor1988]

Hello hi how are you I am sorry to here u are going thru this you have nothing to be ashamed of this happens to almost everyone once in there life you have to be strong and pray prayer is stronger than any medication try meditation and herbal tea and they also have stress b complex made by nature made it works to I'm here if you ever need to talk I'm praying for you

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Survivor1988]

Thank you. I have thought about the stress b complex. So it works pretty good?

[Susan512]

GOD bless you for getting help please your family needs you, I myself had felt like I just don't want to be here anymore but, that's being selfish not fair to our family I can't even imagine how hard for them for me to do something to myself not wanting to be here anymore, but ok I pray that never ever to feel that way again. I'm prescription drug free I'm taking CBD oil that I got from the health store and when I'm having Anxiety I pray and ask God to take it away from me and​ ask him to calm me down and it helps me. Pray 🙏💜

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Susan512]

Thank you for this. What is cbd oil?

[Susan512]

CBD OIL HELPS WITH ANXIETY AND OTHER ILLNESSES , GOOGLE IT'S A POPULAR OIL.💜

[Susan512]

By the way it's Hemp-Derived without the high. Get it from the health food store it's a spray. Go to PlusCBDoil.com phone number 855-758-7223. Tried so many prescription drugs and all I do is get sicker waited 12 weeks on Paxil to work and never did. That's just one of many I tried with no help. Wish you well and everyone here suffering with bad health.🙏💜

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Susan512]

Thanks abunch. I will defenitly look into that ❤

[Vonnah]

Yes, medicine will help you. Your husband is telling you that because he loves you!!!! He supports you and you are not alone. Just try to realize that the really hard times will pass and you will not stay in that position forever. Stay strong💜